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    Annest
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    aromantic
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    genderqueer transmasculine
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  1. Hi, If this dream is making you doubt your identity, then there's nothing wrong with looking into those feelings. However I will say a couple things. First off, something happening in a dream doesn't necessarily mean you want it to happen. They're often just remixes of all the random things we see during the day. Secondly, if you do feel this dream was a reflection of a real world feeling, that still doesn't mean you're no longer aro. I'm not sure if by 'not someone you know in real life' you mean someone who doesn't exist or just someone you only know online, but either way your brain chose someone pretty unattainable to experiment with. A lot of aros have 'crushes' on for instance fictional characters before they realise they're aro. Again, I'm not dissuading you from thinking more about this, as it's pretty healthy and normal to keep questioning your identity, but a desire for affection in a dream with someone who isn't a part of your real life is very very different to a desire for a relationship for a specific, attainable person in the real world. I hope that helps.
  2. As a genderqueer person, you're right that it isn't a gender 'in itself', but that's because its often used as an umbrella term that means something different to many people. However saying it's not a gender at all is a little insensitive to everyone who does identify as genderqueer. My identity is genderqueer, and genderqueer is my gender. (I use other labels sometimes to help further explain, but that doesn't mean genderqueer on its own isn't enough) It's also insensitive to those who have 'non normative' views of gender who are binary trans or cis. You don't have to be genderqueer to have political feelings about gender. That would fall under being gender non conforming, or just aware of issues with how society currently sees gender? Think of 'genderqueer' as like 'nonbinary'. You wouldn't say nonbinary can't be someone's gender, and that it's just a political stance? That line of thinking is often used to dismiss nonbinary people as genuinely trans rather than just being attention seeking or making a statement. To address Yancy's original question: I can't speak for lesbians, but again as a genderqueer person I would fully support you identifying as a genderqueer lesbian, if that is what you decide fits best! Not all people who identify with a gender other than male or female feel totally neutral. Also, language is supposed to be helpful. If it's more helpful for you to communicate your feelings as 'I am a lesbian', than 'I am a genderqueer person with a connection to womanhood who is attracted to women' then you absolutely deserve to use it. Best of luck on your questioning journey.
  3. Hi! So, first off I'd say that you don't Need to be more specific than you can be. If you can only get as close as 'relationship' that's chill. Secondly, and I do not want to come off as harsh, just kind of gently cautioning you with what I say next. So, I agree with @Jot-Aro Kujo on you maybe needing to examine what about the term qp doesn't feel enough, but I'm gonna give you some benefit of the doubt because that could have just been weird phrasing. What I will say, and what I believe is absolute fact just based on you seeing an aro person, and especially based off you saying she's new to this, is you gotta go some research. The fact that you've got this far, and have come to ask other aros for help and advice is awesome, and sadly more than a lot of people will do. But I've been your girlfriend in a situation like this, and I'm not gonna get in depth about it here but the tl;dr: is that any struggle she has right now figuring out what she wants is going to be amplified by any gaps in your own knowledge about aromanticism, and the fallout can really suck. Ideally you want to understand our terms and issues as well as we do. You need to be the one initiating conversations about boundaries, terminology, etc. just as much as she does, so that you're doing your part in making sure your relationship is one where those conversations feel natural and she feels comfortable talking things through with you. Sounds like a lot, but you are initiating a relationship with someone who has a completely different experience and view of attraction and relationships than you do, and you're probably not even going to realise the subtle yet meaningful ways that manifests Until You Do. Like, you say *to you* this feels like any old romantic relationship. and maybe it feels that way to her! maybe you've talked, I don't know. But again, you say she's still exploring her identity. Sometimes you can be fine with the socially expected thing in theory until it happens. How do you feel about kissing? Do you rate it higher than holding hands? ...Would a person on the arospec feel that way?? Have you celebrated valentines day in prior relationships? Do you just assume it's something couples do? ...Would someone who doesn't want to be called your girlfriend feel comfy with that?? Again I have no idea! I'm not her. But if you don't know the answer to any question like this you have to ask. I know this isn't really what you wanted to be told, and maybe this is off topic, but this is very close to my heart, and you say you love her. I absolutely believe you and I want you two to have the best chance possible! As I said before, I'm already super happy that you're coming to a place like this to find info, so I wish you the best of luck.
  4. arokaladin

    Confused...

    You definitely *could*, but we can't tell you if it's the case. I would say, if you're wondering about something like this there's probably something that's sparked that wondering, so I would advise you to look into it a little. Specifically since you mention liking people on some level, but being 'confused', you might want to look into identities under the grey aro umbrella? (demi, grey, lith etc.) Though it could also just be that you find some people nice to look at. That can be the case even if you're aro. Depending on whether you know your sexual orientation or not you may want to look into that too, since it will be easier to pinpoint what it is that you like about people if you can narrow down a bit what other attractions you do and don't feel. Liking people for their physical appearance could be attributed to sexual attraction. So if you know your sexual orientation you might realise that your feeling of being drawn to physical appearance can be attributed to sexual attraction, or you might realise it's very separate, or doesn't feel like an attraction at all, or that it happens outside of the genders you're sexually attracted to etc. etc. Basically it's a starting point. (For me, a lot of my 'crushes' on' people were jealously stemming from gender dysphoria. Don't have the info to know if that's the case for you, but it's an example of the weird places supposed attractions can come from) Also! know that wanting to get married, have a life partnership, have kids and so on doesn't mean you can't be aro. Being aro is purely about lack of romantic attraction, not lack of the things that our society sees as coming along with romantic relationships. For some people they feel that their not wanting kids is tied up in aromanticism, so you might see people talking about things that way, but there are aros who do want them. Reading aromantic people's blogs, social media posts and the such that explain their feelings and journeys in their own words was one of the things that helped me most when questioning, as it's easier to see if you relate to experiences than just a definition. You can find a lot of us on here over at tumblr, and of course reading through the forum could help too. I actually made a post of aro experiences aimed at questioning people a while back, and it had a lot of additions, so it's become a good masterpost. You can find one version here, and another here! Good luck, and please ask more questions if you need to.
  5. Right! sorry if that came across like I was accusing you of being alright with crossing boundaries, I just wanted to explain that that's why many people feel upset by it. I'l say though that you don't have to fully understand the emotional side of things, and I'm sure your friends aren't expecting you to if it's completely outside of your own experiences. A lot of the time when people are upset they might not need you to offer advice or get what they're going through 100%, just for you to be there, and listen to them and comfort them. I get why it would be annoying for you though. I often don't fully understand my friends' feelings or how to give them advice and it can be frustrating. If you really want to help when your friends come to you with this sort of scenario and don't know how, perhaps you could ask directly if there's anything you can do for them? People usually don't mind you asking and will be thankful you gave them the chance to state what they need.
  6. There *isn't* anything wrong with being with two people. The problem is when that wasn't discussed and one person is going behind another's back. I think maybe you're mixing up cheating with polyamory, and those aren't the same at all. Cheating within a monogamous (non polyamorous) relationship is where two people have agreed to be together, and one of them sees another person without the first's knowledge or agreement. Polyamory is when multiple people all agree to be with each other, or that their partner can see other people (it can be many other things too but the agreement is what's important.) Romantic relationships in our society are in most places monogamous by default. This is a norm we need to challenge, and the fact that romantic and platonic relationships operate on different rules is also something we need to challenge, so I see why you as someone on the arospec may feel confused about the exclusivity of romantic relationships when people are free to have as many friends as they like, but like it or not that's the norm. People assume their relationships will be exclusive, so conversations need to be had if that's not going to be the case. Moreover 'cheating' doesn't just mean being with multiple people, and it can happen in polyamorous relationships too. If a triad lays out the 'rules' that none of them will have any more partners and one of the three does, that's still cheating. If a couple have an open relationship on the condition that safe sex is practiced whatever, and one partner has unprotected sex with a new person, that's cheating. Really try to think of it as breaking the rules. So, tl;dr: 'cheating' isn't not being 'tied down', it's violating the boundaries another person/people in your relationship have set out. It's wrong because you've done something that you know your partner(s) didn't want you to do and will be upset by. I hope that makes sense.
  7. It would definitely be good to get a wikipedia up, and from google search results it seems like it shouldn't actually be too tricky to get a few initial sources. On the first couple pages I found a few good articles (cosmopolitan, the guardian, huffpost) that have some good definitions for aromanticism, romance repulsion, and some greyro identities. There's also a lot more discussion of allosexual aros than I'd expected in these too which is brilliant. Unsure if we'd be able to use them as sources, I'll have to look at the reliable source link much more in depth, but it's promising to see all from a surface level search. I also did a quick search for aromanticism on google scholar, which unfortunately brings up almost exclusively articles on asexuality that I assume must mention aromantics in passing. A search for amatonormativity gets a lot more results, but I'd have to look through them much more closely for anything relevant to aromantic basics. Brake's essay coining amatonormativity will obviously come in handy.
  8. I imagine they've caught on to aros complaining about the asexual communities aro erasure and either (the optimistic view) this is a first step towards including us more or (the more pessimistic view but what I believe) are slapping a band-aid on the problem and think we won't notice that a name change is in most cases purely performative and only effects appearance
  9. seconding what @techno-trashcan says, sqishes/qprs can absolutely be sexual, they just can't be romantic. and again, a qpr can be whatever you want it to be. 'committed' is one way we distinguish qprs from friendship but honestly if for whatever reason you think your relationship differs from friendship while still not including romance, you're entitled to call it a qpr. I might also recommend looking into alterous attraction if your squishes feel like something else entirely? I'm not really an expert since I don't feel alterous attraction myself, but there's probably some info on the term somewhere on the forum. good luck!
  10. however you want to have a qpr is fine! and yes, lots of aros have a preference when it comes to the gender of their platonic partner. Not to say you couldn't still be a lesbian, that's sadly something only you can really figure out. since you're so stuck between being a lesbian or aro/ace you might want to look at some grey aro identities? there's a long list of those on the forums here! As for wanting to kiss and cuddle a girl, raise kids with her, but not have sex, that could be a nonsexual romantic relationship or a qpr, there's no real line between the two apart from the feelings defined and how a couple chooses to label it. I would say though, many of us do still enjoy affection like kissing despite it being seen by society as romantic. I hope that ramble helps to answer a few of your questions? but obviously feel free to ask more.
  11. what's up lads it looks like i have uuuuuh None (none) proper irl friends left so I;m back here asking for an F

    1. Neir

      Neir

      Here be an F for you, hang in there

  12. the first book has WHAT! oh hell yeah.... just started reading the long way to a small angry planet and you're right it's so aro friendly and lovely but I had no idea it Got Better... (also can I just say Sissix is a big mood I too have to hold back with affection because the normal humans don't like as much platonic touch.)
  13. I'm personally an atheist and definitely need to put more time aside for contemplating my views on the universe. I'm weirdly not distressed by the idea that it just... always existed? idk it's like optimistic nihilism I guess! That being said, though I'm not sure how much I believe them, all sorts of theories are interesting to me. That another universe spat us out, or another being, or that perhaps the end of our universe kickstarts the beginning. I have. thoughts about time. (sidenote relevant to this thread: as someone who's religious perspective is characterised by what I don't believe... it takes zero money or effort to respect things you don't believe in <3)
  14. I think I am coming on too strong in this friendship and that’s stressing me out I just want to express how deep my love is but at the same time I’d rather die than make a friend uncomfortable so uuuuuuuuh Time For Depression 

    1. Eklinaar

      Eklinaar

      oh, big mood

    2. Magni

      Magni

      oh BIG MOOD.....hope it works out okay :)

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