I just personally am still at the point where I'm very sure that I'm aegosexual and aro for now, but I just want it to stay that way. I don't want to experience sexual attraction simply because I would love to go through life without it, without being focused on romance, sex, or even dating. I want to live and focus on my family, my close friends, and my career. Those three things are all I really want. I just want to live life without obsessing over someone romantically. I never want to be that way. I mean I'm not disgusted by that in society very much, I'm just really not interested, and I don't want my lack of interest to change because even with how society portrays that, I just don't want it. It's all on a very personal level what I want, I hate even being turned on because it just makes me worry and doubt. I'm well aware that I don't have to be the black stripe ace to be ace, but this stupid part of me is thinking that not being that kind will make me far more likely to not be ace at all and that I'll have to deal with sexual attraction, something I just really don't want any part in.