YXSHINN Posted March 5, 2019 Share Posted March 5, 2019 A short description of me to help; -I'm female. -I'm 16. -I'm asexual for SURE. -I've never experienced romantic attraction YET. -The only thing I've experienced was alterous attraction, so I only wanted to be closer with someone emotionally, not romantically. That was when I was 11. -I always feel disconnected from romance when I think about, but I really want to experience it. -I don't mind being with a girl or a boy romantically. -I don't experience sexual attraction, but I'm sex-indifferent, not repulsed. -I would have sex with my partner if they wanted to. -I want to get married, but can't see myself getting married when imagining it. At this moment I'm on another journey figuring out my romantic orientation, now dangling somewhere between gray-biromanticism and aromanticism. I've never fallen in love before and I can only imagine. I don't know what it feels like, I only know that it makes people extremely happy and causesthem to have butterflies in the stomach and all that. It's quite odd since I first identified as heteroromantic, but then I started to have fantasies about being in relationships with girls (both sexually and romantically). The sexual part kind of made me uncomfortable, but I didn't necessarily dislike it from a romantic perspective. I also think I'm gray-biromantic because my attraction to boys and girls seem to be equally as weak/near to nonexistent. But the thing is, I've never had a crush before (not on guys nor girls) so I wouldn't know. I've never looked at someone and thought, "Yeah, I could date them." This whole crushing and falling in love thingy seems absolutely wonderful. When I asked people to describe romantic attraction, they described it as the most heavenly, unearthly thing ever and it honestly seems so nice, but I just can't relate at all. I want to, but I don't. I don't feel a damn thing. The only thing I've experienced was alterous attraction, that was when I was 11. I confessed to a boy that I "liked" him, however my 11 year old self said, "I like you, but I don't want to be your girlfriend, I don't want to have anything with you. I just like you as a person." Looking back at that, maybe that was an early sign showing I'm aromantic? But now, I'm hanging between this odd space of gray(romantic)-biromanticism and aromanticism and I just don't know anymore. I've also thought about being a bi-oriented aroace, but I kind of keep that aside. Any advice? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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