I kept putting off my 'start' date for dating/having crushes. At first I thought it would be when I started high school, then when I was 16, then when I started university, and now I realize I was just putting it off for as long as possible. I once described my feelings to my friends like this 'I feel like it's just a door that I can't open, and when I tried to open it it wouldn't budge, so I'll just wait a little longer to open it'.