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mmmm yes, love hearing about Ukrainians and other enthicities getting mistreated by the Canadian government in history class /s

(i am ukrainian)

PS: fuck the War Measures Act (1914)

Do you ever just... not know if you're meant to do more work or not? Like, I finished my history homework and there's this feeling like there's something else I need to do but I don't know specifically what that is and it bothers me.

if u share a google drive publicly can ppl see what email u use for it?

just a thought

moratorium sounds like smth related to the dead but it's what they call the period before exams start 

WHY DO THEY CALL IT DEAD PEOPLE STORAGE IF IT'S PRE-EXAM STUDYING DATES 💀

IMPLYING THAT WE'RE ALL DEAD BY THE END OF IT??!??!?!?! 💀💀💀

bad wording gets u in weird places

a person on a fandom discord server sent out like two screencaps of the show that were from the same scene and stuff 

 (this was the image)

and i wanted to say that it looked like a good matching icons thing and ended up saying "couple pfp thing" as a replacement since brain couldn't find the words "matching icon" so i ended up somehow making the chat thing i shipped them together 💀 (which i dont support btw, bc it's a child and adult)

bruh like i managed to convince a chat that i was a proshipper or smth bc i couldn't find the words "matching icon"

life is great 💀👍

thankfully someone in there gave me the word for it and everyone apologized for it bc holy shit did the turns table for me

if i were to, say, draw my own pfp (not this one [didn't make it], but one with another character in it) 

what poses would be good for that sorta thing?

watched puss and boots the last wish yesterday (in theaters!) and holy FUCKING SHIT

girl i knew this movie was said to be rlly good but BRUH THE ANIMATION IS FIREEEEE

The fight scenes are FUCKIN AWESOME

(spoilers after this point, be warned)

overall everybody PLEASE watch this gem of a movie literally it's the gold standard for a good film PLS

guys lol i randomly got a matt walsh vid in my recommended

i legit thought that guy was a myth lmao

anyways im listening to radio omens

*weeps*

NEIL GAIMAN MAKES AN APPEARENCE IN THIS ONE I AM SO HYPED

the voices aint that bad now tbh

the good omens bbc radio 4 production makes want to cringe (i don't like the voice actors and CMON certain things were written in the narrator's vision for a reason) but also peak out with intense intrigue

i don't know whether it's worth listening to

sooooo a funny situation happened (tl;dr: someone has supposedly a crush on me and i list all my options)

a bunch of classmates (we sit in lil desk groups of like 6 ppl each but the groups are so close together that i can talk to like 7 different people if i wanted to) during science class told me that apparently some guy has a crush on me

a few things:

- i don't know this guy on a friends basis, or practically any basis. literally i don't think we've talked.

- i (obviously) don't like him that way, he rings as the type of guy i wouldn't relate with at all (kids cartoon enjoyer person x average teenager who likes sports doesn't go together well IMO)

and so. they (people who told me this) were all like "do you have snap? instagram? we can give you his" and i said yes to the instagram (bc i dont have snapchat) and im just sitting there sorta just registering the fact that someone has a crush on me despite almost never interacting with me??? at all??? like sometimes he'll comment on smth i said and i'll comment back but it's strictly classmate to classmate

those two who told me (yea there were two of them, a guy and a girl) were like. 100% trying to like get us talkin or something. i don't know. all i know is that they were super insistent on it. the dude was like trying to convince me like "he's hot" (which, aesthetically speaking, i could see. fair. he looked conventionally ok tbh)

i tried to tell em that i didn't share those feelings back and eventually i caved and said "he'd make a  good friend, i guess" and they said that they were gonna share his insta after class (they must've forgot or smth bc it didn't happen, i didn't want to remind them anyways)

im basically on the level of denying that the whole thing happened/assuming they were joking because how in holy fuck does one develop a crush by never actually talking to said person?

i mean he must've straight up went purely by looks then, which doesn't compute because im not ugly and i certainly never think i am but ive always considered myself not crush material (proven wrong 1 time before, making the number of times people have crushed on me 2)

maybe it's got to do with me bein aroace but i simply refuse to believe people could have a crush on me, because it's just not possible. but it also is? idkkkk

anyways. what should i do if they mention it again:

1) pray to the universe that they will conveniently forget (the option im sticking with)

if they don't, then:

2) get his insta, talk to him, turn him down politely

3) don't get his insta, avoid trouble of rejecting

4) hope that it was a joke and that it was purely out of satire. that they won't bring up the same satire twice (similar to 1st option, but with added denial)

5) get his insta, reject, but make new friend

anyways help.

being aroace sucks on moments like this because i have the experience of an awful "someone has a crush on me" to be able to reject easy and early, but im low on irl friends so maybe that could work out?

idk how this whole "crushes" thing works. i mean it's certainly confirming that i am in the age range of romantic crushes and that i am 100% aroace but it's hard to deal with other people's messes

the s2 audio breaks me everytime 🥺🥺🥺

damn vox you dont have to be so funny

"a boat is just a money pit" LMAO

i started re-watching good omens today and my parents saw me watching it and their first thought was "why is adam and eve black?"

like how do i answer that f*cking question

i tried to tell them that it doesn't f*cking matter what coor skin they have but my parents went on about how the bible depicts them as white

like gurl they only show up for one scene i dont get ur deal

it's just adam and eve bro

whats even funnier is immediately after that they saw aziraphale and crowley and were like "see? they're white." and i think my brain basically reacted like "💀"

what the fuck dawg lemme enjoy my gay celestial being show in peace like i have the first 8 times

i want to own a banjo.

not to play it, but just to have it. just kinda let it hang there 

idk this popped in ma head after watching someone play the banjo of "the lick" SOOOOO 

BANJO TIIIIME

im currently at this volunteer meeting thing i saw one of the ppl from school on there

she works for the volunteer companies :/

just went online with a math tutor i found on tvomathify bt ngl he sounded so tired

like-

idk how to word it but he just-

sounded so exhausted and i didn't know whether i should've mentioned it or not so i didn't

but he sounded very done

but then again it's 8pm est and he's most likely been working since opening time (3pm) so he's been doing math for 5 hours straight

and will continue to till 9pm

but then again mathify isnt too active rn so maybe that;s good?

but his voice pained me to listen to

if i actually knew the mf behind the screen i'd have piped up ages ago

i just feel so bad for him

bill wurtz made a non-song vid!

just finished reading this book called Rick today and it made me realize a few things

1) if this book was around when i was 8-10 years old (it's a book for ppl of that age i think), i think that shit would've been made clearer that i was aroace a lot quicker than it did

2) i finished it in like a solid 15-25 minutes, i don't think i've ever done that sorta thing since i was little. most of the books i usually read are long 500 page messes. this one was a solid 200 something pages and with very big lines for text

3) this author is really good at making kids books with good rep. a nonbinary person, trans girl, bisexual person, pansexual, etc.

all good. all nice. and summed up in a way that the 8-10 age ranges can understand

4) this feels like a sequel (that isn't rlly a sequel, more like a book in the same universe with contunity) of George. mainly bc one character had that deadname, same friend, etc.

5) apparently 6th graders go around burning signs now. or maybe that's just one idiot in the book named jeff. idk. but it sucked to read him doin that shit. 

6) somewhat of a repeat of #1, but i feel like this book will 100% help those at a young age not feel so isolated for being themselves. like i said, if i read this book at an earlier age, maybe i'd wouldn't have landed into certain situations and such.

dont you hate it when you ordered 2 books from your library (they're in a series) and the 2nd book comes earlier than the first?

the first hasn't arrived yet but the 2nd has

1st one is still in transit like wtf

it's both or nothing tpl, both or nothing

wait what

my science teacher has been summoned to fucking court? for jury duty?

wtf is jury duty?

according to my teacher, this summoning shit happens every 3 years once you reach 18?

and then he says he gets sleected to serve for this ""jury panel"" for a 3 week trial which is inconvenient as fuck

like ok, sorry but the way you're wording this shit makes it sound like a fucking cult

my parents have never had to do this in a million years (otherwise i would've known)

oml

is the summoning only for single people?

am i gonna be summoned??????!!!!!

nah but like this court thing is real (i looked it up)

https://www.justice.gc.ca/eng/csj-sjc/just/12.html

and now i have several questions to my teacher

is it a FUCKING CULT

my teacher is asking us (on a google form) how to pronounce your name in phonetics

i don't know phonetics this is insane 💀

i mean how do i phonetic Mars?

like, cmon, HOW? How does anyone mess that shit up?

ever?

bruh this is so unfair

i got my timetable recently but i didn't get the one course i wanted, so i requested for it back but they said it's full

i swear to god

I WAS REALLY LOOKIN FORWARD TO MEDIA ARTS AND THEY STOLE IT FROM ME

I HAVE TO DO VISUAL ARTS AGAIN

WHY

you know what sucks?

culture shock, mainly the romance kind

i met up with a few old friends i havent seen irl since the pandemic (for reference they're mostly 1yr older than me, or the same age as me. one of them is 1yr younger than me tho)

most times i'd overhear them going "i want a bf" or like "i just left a toxic relationship" or smth and im kinda like "ok" in my head but i cant rlly find common ground with them

one of them (younger one) said "i want to get a bf in highschool"

like girls i get ur point u can stop being allosexual now 

at least one of the friends (i'll call A) didn't rlly participate bc she's a lesbian/bisexual so we kinda talked about AJR and animation and now that's what i can relate to a lil bit

when all of them weren't talking about partners and potential dates n stuff, we were cool. talked about manga and learned that "adult" manga exists. it's basically nudity but someone had the balls to draw uncensored boobs and super sexualized situations.

we watched a Studio Ghibli movie (howl's moving castle) bc A was particularly "offended" that i haven't watched it yet

the animation is truly *chef's kiss* and i loved it (WHY DO THE SHEEP LOOK LIKE BALLS OF WHITE IT'S SO CUTE)

but still, feeling all the fucking culture shock kinda just made me realize im prolly gonna be hanging around ppl who want bfs/gfs/partners more than they do an actual platonic friend i bet

as certain cartoon caracters would say I guess this is my life now.

tho im not too sure how to deal with the fact that im 15, have 0 interest in gaining a bf or gf (i want friends the most), and cannot relate to the "i want [romantic thing here]" sentiments