techno

currently lowkey Sad™ because i have only one class with my best friend this year and i'm used to seeing her for most of the day

and we're graduating this year so i'll barely see her after that

i'm emotionally attached tbh

also today in my adolescent literature class i had an epiphany: i've found myself relating to/projecting onto/even writing so many fewer female characters than male characters for multiple reasons, but there was one piece i was always missing: romance/falling in love/being motherly or nurturing are such INTEGRAL parts of so many narratives written for girls and women, even some held up as feminist icons, while there are many more male characters who either evade the romance narrative entirely or their personal narratives aren't totally centered around it.

feminism has failed me! and that's the tea.

aro culture is constantly being a stepping stone for your "friends" until they find a romantic partner and decide they don't need you at all

consequently, aro culture is having this happen to you so often that you get used to it and just assume you can never trust your friends

hey aro "allies": boost our voices, maybe, instead of just preaching about how Valid we are

(i'm salty and also preaching to the choir, but then again that's not new)

Honestly the only content for aro consumption is the same old "your identity is valid" regurgitated in a thousand different wordings, and validation is important and all but having been part of the aro community for a little over three years now i've found that not much has really changed; we have a bunch more haters and people trying to police our existence but we're not even on the mainstream's radar. Even our own awareness week saw a marked lack of content which is honestly depressing

Some genuine representation and some people fighting for us when it really counts instead of just pretending to care about aros only when we're around would be nice, while the same old dusty positivity just leaves me empty

Lmao this is what pride month has done to me

I realized that in my four years of identifying as aro, I have not once actually actively come out to someone 100% of my own free will without feeling obligated or coerced into doing it.

Anyone who knows I either didn't have to tell or felt forced to tell.

in the distance, a soft gentle weeping is heard

i am done my college applications

i feel so alive

me: self promo is tacky

also me: https://aro-soulmate-project.tumblr.com/post/171056954866/cyborgs-manifesto

pros of the semester being almost over:
- semester is almost over
- i can go home

cons:

- drowning in final papers

since i was last active on here i like. came out to a bunch of people.

would that be interesting to talk about?

so i made technopapo

i have made a grave mistake it looks terrible but i know nothing about techno aesthetic i just kinda took a shot in the dark

it doesn't even fit but u know i'm too lazy to fix it

The more this year goes on the more i realize i'm in too deep...

I talk to my best friend maybe once per day and I highkey miss seeing her and am suffering

there's no easy way to say "i lowkey want to 100% platonically spend the rest of our lives travelling the world together because i never want to stop seeing each other all the time for nearly 10 years"

When I was younger I was never very good at recognizing my own feelings, but the one thing I was always certain of was that I didn't get crushes. It was only when I learned that was apparently wrong that I put a label to my orientation. I think for me the label "aromantic" is my way of taking the power back from the people who made me think who I am, who I've always known I am, is wrong.

Just some thoughts.

when your friends bring up a really cringe-worthy memory from your past in which one of your other friends had a crush on you and you were never supposed to tell anyone and never wanted it brought up ever again but they bring it up right in front of both of you

rip

*taps mic* is this thing on? feels like i haven't been on the forums in ages

2 weeks until the worst holiday of the year BUT that also means only a few weeks until the BEST WEEK OF THE YEAR so take your pick of whether to be full of dread or excitement

AJNXJWJDKQKDA at 7 AM i was sleeping and my roommate finally came back after a night of partying and a guy on our floor was putting her to bed (even though she could walk herself but okay) and then i heard them kissing for a solid 30 seconds and he was like "goodnight" (it's 7 AM my dude the SUN IS RISING) and said something and she goes "i love you too" and he leaves ajdhwjdkkwkd she's been off-and-on hating and loving this guy all year and i know they thought i was sleeping but my romance repulsed ass was SCREAMING and now i feel like i'm harboring a dirty secret SOS my aro ass doesn't deserve this

aro culture is being blatantly aro in front of everyone you know but having people not catch on because of invisibility

current mood: existential crisis

Currently wondering why I'm still sitting at my computer listening to the same songs all summer instead of doing something productive. 

eager to finally go home for winter break but also dreading the inevitable conversations with my nosy, aphobic relatives who only try to support me when it's convenient

Going to be offline for the most part until the weekend! I have band camp so I won't be active on the forums or the Discord chat.

Happy Aro Week (if you're in the US or if it's already Monday where you are)!

HAPPY ARO WEEK EVERYBODY! 

hey can i get a uhh....... respect for my orientation