For me it wasn't until my late teens when I had my first "relationships". I love romance in fiction so I was looking forward to feeling it myself, but it never came. I acted the part, but the whole time I felt stressed and bored. I wanted to just be close, be friends, and I thought more about what would happen if I were to have sex rather than any future with the person. Once we would part ways for the day I would feel relieved. ?