I already posted it on reddit, so I thought I might put it here as well.
Lately I've found myself in a strange situation, to say at least. So: one of my friends confessed her romantic feelings to me, and although (not to sound rude) I've had my suspicions, I never thought she would confront me about it, nor that she actually really felt about me this way.
I've thought about dating her a few times in the past two years or so that we've known eachother. The bare thought of being in a relationship with her isn't by any means disgusting, or unappealing, or whatsoever. Frankly speaking I just don't feel anything while imagining myself in it. And that's what I told her: that I in fact have thought about dating her, and that my feelings for her could be classified as romantic ones, but since I have a problem with labeling my own emotions, I can't be sure about it. I also mentioned that I may be emotionally unavailable, and I don't want to feel like I can't love her the way she deserves and wants me to. She accepted it, saying we can still try, and I'm not really sure how it happened, but I agreeded to it, and I feel completely lost.
I keep on unintentionally creating scenarios where I'm breaking up with her, which is something I did in my last relationship as well, before I figured out I might be on the aromantic spectrum, so I suppose it's not a good sign. One part of my brain tells me I should immediately break up with her, in order to not 'get stuck' in a relationship that's literally eating me alive (in the sense that it's not letting me live in peace, because I get so stressed thinking about it), but the other one keeps telling me that maybe I should stay in it, to see where it'll lead me, because what's the worst thing that could happen?
Anyways; I'm not really sure what I wanted to achieve by making this post. I guess I was looking for some kind of advice...? So if anyone has ever been in a similar situation, or felt something similar, or just wants to say something, I'd be glad to hear it.
UPDATE (in case anyone's interested): We talked it out!! I won't go into details, because we decided to keep those private, but I just wanted to thank everyone who has read/replied to this post!! ^^