hi, welcome to Arocalypse!!
i was in a similar position not too long ago. i first found out that i was acespec, and i was okay with that. but then i realised that i might be aro as well, and i just couldn't wrap my head around the fact that i won't be able to love someone romantically. and like you said, even i wanted to be in a romantic relationship, and i was bummed that i won't be able to experience that. then i found out about QPRs, and that was a like a consolation for me. i also came across the term cupio-romantic, and it fit me very well but i don't like the idea of using micro-lables. so for now i've settled on greyro or arospec.
i hope you figure things out, and you can always find help and support here if you need it. :D