Hello, I joined today and I quite recently discovered I can be in aromantic spectrum.
I read about what aromantic means and about signs of aromantic of other people. Many of them is matching: I never had a crush, I had to come out with some when I was talking with my friends. The possible crush was after all a 'squish' in fact. I'm romantic repulsive to idea of me in relationship and I not always understand the romantic actions of others. Or the concept of love itself. I always thought that there was something wrong with me because others found each other one or more partners and I didn't even want to think about it too much. And there is many other factors that indicate that I'm aromantic.
But I still enjoy some romantic stories. I have ships and I have few favourite romance stories that I like to read/watch. Does that mean I'm not aromantic and confuse it with something else?
Usually, when watching / reading other genres, I do not pay attention to whether there is any romance in it. I also remember that in some stories I felt repulsive at the sight of some romantic actions or did not understand how the characters came together even though others took it for certainty. I like some romances for other features like e.g. representation of the world or a dash. However, I really like some of them for a main relationship and I have a lot of ships or OC that I create to be with some character. Does that exclude me from being an aromatic?
Thank you if you choose to answer. I don't know if my problem is trivial and I shouldn't write it, but I'm very anxious when I finally start to understand something about myself and I don't have any other people to ask so I decided to write here.