I think I already said it. My entire childhood up until age 11, there was an "voice" in my head(he 'sounded' distinctly older than me and spoke like an inner monologue but I knew it wasn't mine cause I 'sounded' different)who told me grown-up things like "That's a sexual reference." and "That's wildly inappropriate to say with a child in the room.". Like, the one of the only instances that I remember exactly what he said was when I was in the shampoo aisle, smelling shampoo. I smelt one an was like "Oh, that smells like InsertMaleClassmate'sName!" and he said that that was gay to know that(he was referring to the fact that I actively sniffed Classmate enough to memorize his scent). I felt ashamed cause heteronormative society and all. The last time we spoke, I was in a self-defense class and this boy my age I(kinda) had a crush on was straddling me are part of a technique. Ths Voice said "Yeah, this is pretty gay. Cause you are." and I was all in denial so I kept arguing saying I wasn't gay and he got pissed and said "Fine. You're not." and left and I haven't heard him since. Anyways like last year I was analyzing my inner monologue when I realized it sounded EXACTLY like the Voice. So I guess he technically was always me? Or maybe he was my subconscious(me and my subconscious talk regularly).