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So, many times I've tried age regressing. Most times it was unsuccessful. I've done as much as I could. I've watched kids shows, cuddled with stuffed animals, colored, and a few other things, and not much has resulted. I felt like a kid a few times, though not often. I was close to slipping into little space a few times, even though it wasn't often. One time, it wasn't my fault. The teacher was playing a video for very little kids, as a part of our animation class, and I almost slipped into little space, but prevented it. That time scared me a lot. Another time was when (in the same class) we had to color a picture, I almost slipped into little space. Another times I was thinking of the song "Hot dog" from Mickey Mouse clubhouse, and almost slipped. And one other time, I simply had a tantrum, and either almost slipped or I did slip, but I don't remember. I don't age regress in situations where I need to. Like if I'm having an anxiety attack, or just anxious, or having a depressive episode, or having a flashback/remembering a traumatic experience. And yet... nothing. I just unfortunately, and unhappily suffer through those tough times. And I know I need to do it. I really do. but it seems to fail me. As embarrassed as I am to admit this, I do find myself wanting a pacifier, and sippy cups, and a whole bunch of younger kids stuff. :hides face: And I know I can talk like a kid too. Anyone can. So I have wondered if I'm an age dreamer. Most times, when I want that stuff, and talk like a little child, and try to slip, I still find myself thinking like an adult/someone my age. I've cried because I can't seem to do it. I've cried because it feels like I have no coping mechanism, and I really do want one. What's wrong with me? Why can't I seem to do it, even in situations where it's likely to happen? Is there something wrong with me? Do I even have a coping mechanism?

But I do.

Disorder and confusion everywhere /lyr

This doesn't happen everyday, but it happens sometimes, and sometimes when it does, it's random, and I'm not saying this happens all of the time, just sometimes, or in front of people I don't know a lot, but have seen a few times, or complete strangers: I become so anxious of negative judgement from strangers, and even my friends sometimes, and other negative things, and become so terrified to talk to a stranger to the point I either stutter a lot, become so soft spoken the other person can't hear me very well, or I can't talk at all. That's how terrified I get. It's also annoying how frightened/anxious I get because of strangers. How anxious I get because I'm scared of negative judgement and bad things like that. What's wrong with me? Oh, and due to the anxiety, I may not talk (this also happens while texting) Sometimes, though, it's easy to talk to strangers, to say hi, but sometimes I can't do it because it gets so hard.

Yesh. I wanna be the character in my pfp-

Queer romance stuff Cheese filled hot dogs (don't ask lol- :') ) Zodiac stuff Mindlessly scrolling through YouTube Being chaotic with my friends Listening to music, 24/7 Being on my phone for so long at night that I lose all my sleep Family Guy Uquiz Watching videos of AI rewriting stories Watching this one cringe compilation that had a mind brand meme with a bunch of pictures of random senior ladies/grandmas that made me laugh so hard I couldn't breath

The- The page number. It's 69- *Shaketh in fear* Uhmmmmm.. How are you?

Thank you. :)

I'm doing a Uquiz, and thinking of family guy. Also I'm gonna change my account theme, anyone have ideas on that?

I'm going to say the following with confidence: I'm aromantic. I'm really proud to have this done and over with. It was hell.

Hi! Welcome to the forum! I'm Moon. My pronouns are They/them and He/him. I felt similarly before. I'm aro too. But, alas, I am an asexual (sorry if I sound like Shakespeare lol). My favorite colors are blue, green, black, silver/grey, pink, gold, red, orange, and yellow. I love most animals. Oh, mystery is delightful. Have some garlic bread (if you want). Again, welcome!

On A Banana

Congratulations!

"Glue"

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Idk. Something got me thinking (Ik I think a lot, ok-) about my past with having "crushes." What if they were crushes? That's ok. I know, I don't have to think so hard about this. In the past there was this: - Thinking someone looked cute - Wanting to be affectionate (although, if I can remember as accurate as possible, I don't think that occurred a lot, other than wanting hugs) - Wanting to date them, because everyone else was dating and I wanted to fit in, remembering how desperate I was to find someone to date, yet no one wanted to date me, completely ignoring whether I wanted to date someone or not - Wanting to date people who I was friends with, because they were awesome and had a great personality, y'know friend qualities, and I thought that liking someone's personality meant I was in love/had a crush, but then again that might not have meant a thing -One time wanting to kiss my lady friend, kinda badly, probably due to curiosity - Forced myself into relationships I didn't want - Once entering those relationships I wanted out - Only enjoying the sensual parts of a romantic relationship, cause that seemed to be the only thing I wanted, other than getting to know them - Being repulsed by french kissing, and romance in general -Rarely fantasizing/dreaming about marriage and dating, until I started questioning my orientation, then I would think of it a little too much, to see if I liked a gender that way, or if I thought I figured it out, I would fantasize too much, and want romantic things with that gender, and I would fantasize so much, that I got burned out - At one time, I stopped being infatuated by the idea of finding someone, and became fine and liked the idea of being single, and that made me feel free, and happy - Identified as Bi and Pan at times - Became interested, and connected with aromanticism and the aromantic-spectrum, though at the time I didn't know why exactly - Feels isolated from alloromantic identites, as if I were an outcast - Easily experiences sensual and platonic attraction -It felt like a chore to be in a relationship like that -Felt I couldn't reciprocate the other persons feelings And now: - Liking and feeling a sense of community with the aro-spec - Unable to understand romantic attraction, and the definitions I get only confuse me more, since there are too many - Not able to tell if my past "crushes" were romantic crushes or queerplatonic crushes, or platonic squishes - Doesn't want a romantic relationship - Doesn't see my gf as a romantic partner, even though we're dating - Prefers making friends over starting relationships - Hates how much romance is in the media - Wishing not to experience romantic attraction, because, as confusing as it is, it seems gross - Can imagine being aromantic in the future - Is fine with the idea of never falling in love romantically/feeling romantic attraction - Realizing how stupid it was for me to be so desperate to find a romantic partner, just to fit in - Faking a couple of crushes - Mistaking aesthetic and sensual attraction for crushes -Romantic fantasies seem so much more better in my head then in real life - Not able to tell if someone has a crush on me (even though this might not count) - Relating to a lot of other signs in another topic on Arocalypse - Having to look up "Do I have a crush or not?" because it's that difficult -Experiencing signs similar to that of a romantic crush, however, it's towards friends, and others in a non-romantic context - Thinking marriage and romantic relationships are stupid and pointless, and not understanding either of those things, especially marriage since it seems like all you do in marriage is yell at one another - Not wanting marriage -Tbh, I match a lot of signs of not experiencing romantic attraction - Wanting the aro flag to be my flag I'm sorry for bothering you all. I just feel like I can't be aro, and I don't know why. I feel like a misfit, even in the aro/aro-spec community. I'm full of a lot of insecurity. Is this normal?

Song/music

And yet everyone else says yes.

The reason I sob hysterically into a pillow or something /j Bleach

Academics

Suppository (Idk why this is the first thing I thought of-)

Oh. What movie?