Angrboda Posted February 9, 2023 Share Posted February 9, 2023 (edited) Posting this in hopes that it might help someone. So... I've been here for a while now but I found out something interesting recently & I thought I'd share. First of all, no, I didn't fall in love. I found out that I have a condition. I've never really been able to feel happiness before. What I was calling 'happy' was really more like a lack of being sad or angry. In other words, what I was calling 'happy' was, in fact, just neural. No, I don't know the exact name of the condition yet. I'll get back to you on that. But this explains sooo much in my life! I always wondered why everyone else seemed to care about stuff like eating & music. I'd also wondered why everyone seemed to really enjoy being around each other, as if it were actually a meaningful thing to be in the room with a person they cared about. I'm fully able to care for someone's well being & to think well of them as a person, but I've never found it particularly meaningful to just be around them. I also never had self esteem issues or the need for others to like me (as that need comes from the happy chemicals that are supposed to be released when you spend time socializing) Well, falling in love also relates to intense happy feelings when you spend time with a person, so... Yeah. I might not be fully aro after all. On the up side, once I get this treated, I'll actually be able to experience positive emotions sometimes, so yay! UPDATE: I now have a name for it. I have Schizoid personality disorder. Edited March 28, 2023 by Angrboda Update 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DaviM703 Posted February 9, 2023 Share Posted February 9, 2023 That really doesn't sound fun, hope you get to feel positive emotions soon! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hemogoblin Posted February 9, 2023 Share Posted February 9, 2023 (edited) Anhedonia is tough! Good luck pursuing treatment! Edited February 9, 2023 by hemogoblin 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Angrboda Posted March 28, 2023 Author Share Posted March 28, 2023 I now have a name for it. I have Schizoid personality disorder. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
alto Posted March 28, 2023 Share Posted March 28, 2023 1 hour ago, Angrboda said: I now have a name for it. I have Schizoid personality disorder. May the path ahead of you not be filled with too many potholes! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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