Angrboda

I now have a name for it. I have Schizoid personality disorder.

Posting this in hopes that it might help someone. So... I've been here for a while now but I found out something interesting recently & I thought I'd share. First of all, no, I didn't fall in love. I found out that I have a condition. I've never really been able to feel happiness before. What I was calling 'happy' was really more like a lack of being sad or angry. In other words, what I was calling 'happy' was, in fact, just neural. No, I don't know the exact name of the condition yet. I'll get back to you on that. But this explains sooo much in my life! I always wondered why everyone else seemed to care about stuff like eating & music. I'd also wondered why everyone seemed to really enjoy being around each other, as if it were actually a meaningful thing to be in the room with a person they cared about. I'm fully able to care for someone's well being & to think well of them as a person, but I've never found it particularly meaningful to just be around them. I also never had self esteem issues or the need for others to like me (as that need comes from the happy chemicals that are supposed to be released when you spend time socializing) Well, falling in love also relates to intense happy feelings when you spend time with a person, so... Yeah. I might not be fully aro after all. On the up side, once I get this treated, I'll actually be able to experience positive emotions sometimes, so yay! UPDATE: I now have a name for it. I have Schizoid personality disorder.

Barf. Or Confused. Batfused!

What are your favorite names? Traditional, modern, exotic, or common. Just a list of your favorite names. I know it's a strange question, but I'm a writer, so I spend a lot of time looking up names, their meanings, & what part of the world they're from. (Plus I just find it interesting! XD )

Wow! My sister & I are twelve & a half years apart. Can't imagine 16 years apart!

Cool! What's going to be the age gap between you & your sibling?

LOL Get down on one knee & ask her to be your best friend. XD

Okay, so admittedly, despite being in my mid 30s, I have zero actual experience... But, if I were in a relationship, I think I'd just want it to be like a very best friend, who was close to my age, wanted the same things from life, & wanted to be exclusive sexual partners. But, at the same time, no dating, no marriage, no kids, separate houses, separate bank accounts, &, just in general, not spending too much time together. Not sure if that answers your question or not, but that's what I think it would be like for me. XD

I (bio female, nonbinary, demisexual/aremsexual, & aro) have one sibling who is more than a decade younger. She's a bio female, nonbinary & bisexual. She's fully allo, though.

I have a huge... something.. crush/squish/obsession with Loki! ^_^

That's awesome! LOL

You can hear tastes? I don't think I've heard of that kind before. Sounds awesome! XD

OK, now I can talk. ^_^ I have grapheme-color, rarely grapheme-texture, (There's one letter that feels like a wicker basket), learned sequence-color, rarely learned sequence-texture, (There's one month that feels like velvet.), & music-color/shape. What's the texture induced kind like?

My phone is being very strange at the moment :p I'll be on my computer in a bit & can answer better.

I'm in my mid 30s & I think what I feel is more like sexual desire, rather than sexual attraction, as it's not usually aimed at specific individuals. It began around puberty.