Guest Zee Posted September 7, 2021 Share Posted September 7, 2021 So i have been attracted to people before, but in hindsight i don't really think it was romantic. With boys i would really like them. I would get super nervous and blush around them, but i did end up trying to date a couple. One boy, i liked him and we would flirt all the time. He asked me out and all of a sudden i was terrified. I lost feelings right there. I wanted to run and hide. I couldnt even look at him without feeling like i was going to have a panic attack. (I have had actual panic atracks and it was pretty simular). I would be relieved when they left me alone. When dating boys online i got bored pretty quickly and would break it off. I never even said i love you unless they said it first. The only time i ever cried over a boy was when me and my bff asked him out at the same time. I think i cried because she cried though, because thats the only time its happened. With girls ive had feelings for a couple of them. I thought that i was a lesbian for a long time, but it never sticks. Thinking about dating anyone in general makes me want to cry. I liked this girl a couple of years older than me and i thought she was super cool. I got jealous of her bf once (before she came out). I have litteraly only been jealous of someones partner one time. She held my hand once and i got butterflies for the second time in my 18 years. I tried to think about dating her, but it never really seemed realistic. I knew she was gay so i thought maybe i could date her, but i dont think i ever really wanted to. I just couldn't get excited about it. All it took for me to lose feelings for her was her not answering one of my texts. I cant even imagine an ideal date or future partner and life. The most i ever wanted to do with any of these people was to hug, hold hands or slow dance with. I also wanted to live with my bff after highschool. I honestly dont think ive ever wanted to kiss or date anyone. Any advice would be appriciated. Sorry for the length. Thank you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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