RoboticHumanoid Posted November 15, 2020 Share Posted November 15, 2020 (edited) I've struggled with suicidal ideation a few years ago and for the past few months. now, when I'm not currently in a suicidal state, I've been getting triggered by suicide discussion/content about it. And by triggered, i mean the mental health sense of a negative emotional response. and of course it's not consistent. i don't know why it's happening. it's weird. does anyone else get that or something similar? Edited November 15, 2020 by RoboticHumanoid Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cyancat Posted November 15, 2020 Share Posted November 15, 2020 hi, yeah, i understand this absolutely. um... so a couple of years ago, i was in a pretty bad state of mind of suicidal ideation where i also didn't like. realize i was particularly suicidal? i eventually stopped getting those thoughts. well, less stopped and more - so i tend to experience depression in cycles. it's generally pretty mild? until i dip and suddenly i'm struggling to stay awake because i just want to sleep alsdjf;; and then sometimes - like you said - when i read/hear suicidal content n stuff it mucks with my brain and conjures all those lovely self-destructive thoughts that i've been repressing for the past couple years or i just completely nope outta there whether mentally or physically because i don't think i can deal with it. and like you said! it's not always consistent. sometimes i can be perfectly okay, other times i want to flip outta there right then and there. i think, though, other people's experiences may remind us of our own, and all the things we were feeling at the time. i can't say why some things may remind us more than others - sometimes there's no real rhyme or reason. sometimes i'm triggered by experiences that are pretty far away from my own, and yet i still feel that itch? regardless, it seems like a typical response, and is kinda why i tend to be pretty scarce on vent places, since i know it'll create some pretty nasty response feelings in me. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Collie Posted November 15, 2020 Share Posted November 15, 2020 Not personally triggered by suicide, but I have triggers for my anxiety. I think it can just remind us of the state we're in, and that's why. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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