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RoboticHumanoid

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  1. intro: I'm nb and writing for a competition for the theme of mask. thought I'd write about self discovery of gender. then i had the idea of a game with the wrong character selection. I'm not sure whether it feels disingenuous with main character because of the whole free will vs determinism thing. what do people think of this idea and prose? prose: I'm staring at the character selection screen. I notice the gender selection as i click start. Gosh darn it! It said female when i didn't want it too. Crap. --- Staring at the gender boxes on a form, I tick female but something feels...off. it feels arbitrary. *** when i was younger someone asked me if I'm a boy or a girl. I said girl. --- Watching I see my player character respond as girl rather than my selected option of neither. What a bogus dialogue feature! It's like fallout 4, you won't get the dialogue you chose but at least then you could go the last save file to see other options. No save options here >:( --- I said to a classmate i may go with they/them pronouns while i figure out what's with the gender thing. Ahh, hindsight and foreshadowing. They/them it's been for a while.
  2. i keep coming that idea or maybe stereotype that kids, especially girls would plan their weddings when young. i don't remember ever doing that when i was a little kid that others saw as a girl. how common is that experience? And, when I've been thinking about marriage, it's the practical aspect which probably is because I'm aro (tho it doesn't necessarily apply to all aro or arospec peeps).
  3. I've struggled with suicidal ideation a few years ago and for the past few months. now, when I'm not currently in a suicidal state, I've been getting triggered by suicide discussion/content about it. And by triggered, i mean the mental health sense of a negative emotional response. and of course it's not consistent. i don't know why it's happening. it's weird. does anyone else get that or something similar?
  4. YMBAI you googled what a crush is for the 7th time
  5. So, i questioned whether i was aro for a good while and finally just accepted it in april this year. i think amatonormativity has become more annoying with time. of course i can always enjoy a well crafted romance but I've grown a prejudice against trying to read something as there is a very real possibility there is romance in a story i don't expect it in or want it in. I just want some good friendships right now.
  6. For the past month or more, I'm finding I'm just getting annoyed at romantic relationships in stories, especially the straight ones. I'm getting more annoyed than usual. almost to a point of frustration. i generally enjoy reading romance even if i myself have never experienced that attraction although it tends to get repetitive. I might just be shifting to a more romance indifference or repulse but i don't know. what do other people make of it?
  7. To my younger self: Make friends sooner. They are amazing and can help in those times when you chose to suffer alone. I know it's hard but it's worth the effort. Kudos to you for actually deciding strangely that there's a chance you're not straight and question it though it took far too long to accept you are aroace or actually Google other gender identities to finally find a non-binary identity. Be happy with yourself because that's the best thing to do when you have one life. Now I must go and keep learning how to live because annoyingly, there's no manual to life.
  8. 100% liberal regarding American policies though that could be because I live in the uk
  9. In English discombobulated and anthropoid- but there are always interesting words. Oh and also simulacrum.
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