glypharia.exe

I identified as straight for the longest time, purely because I never thought about attraction or romantic relationships. After being further introduced to the queer community by my friends, I identified as questioning for another long period in my life and because I never experienced attraction, I was so unsure of my sexuality. I actively looked at people and asked "am i attracted to them?" and always came up empty. later on, i had my first squish on someone (at the time i thought it was a crush) and my desperate self started using the bisexual label. I stumbled on asexual shortly after and researched it and used the biromantic asexual label. found aromanticism about a year after using the biromantic asexual label, and thought i was just aroace because these thoughts of "attraction" weren't like what I had heard others talking about. finally reached the bi-oriented aroace label and have been using it for a while now.

glypharia was simply a late night scramble of thoughts. I really like the word "glyph" so that was sort of the basis. even though my real name isn't aria, i really did like the name and so I combined the two and really liked how it turned out. the "exe" was added later on after some friends of mine joked that i was really just a computer program or something one time.

When I was a kid, whenever a kissing scene came on in a movie or a show, even a comic, I would turn away until my parents told me "It's done", with weird looks at me afterwards. The scenes just made me feel super uncomfortable, and they still sort of do. It's the same thing with all those shirtless scenes that some movies would have. Also, when people started to get crushes on each other and talk about that stuff, I just... didn't really fit. My friends would sometimes come up to me and say "isn't [insert stereotypical name here] hot???" or "i think i have a crush on [insert another stereotypical name here]." and I would sort of just go... "alright?" because i didn't know how to respond to that. I had never gotten a crush and I didn't know what it felt like, so I just went along with it thinking that "I'll feel attraction someday." The only "love life" I have ever experienced to date was in elementary school, when my entire grade thought this one kid and I were together simply because we were both the shortest people in the grade level. The thought kind of just repulsed me entirely, to the point where I actively ignored the other kid who got unfortunately "shipped" with me. He was a cool kid, don't get me wrong, he was nice, and we got along well. We had a silent agreement that year and then on: Don't talk to each other, don't interact with each other unless necessary (school projects, plays, music class, etc). Thankfully, when the next year came around, everyone stopped. But that whole ordeal made me really realize that I didn't even like the notion of getting put into a possibly romantic relation with anyone else.

1. indie. need i say more? 2. rock and alt 3. pop is... ok ig? 4. lo-fi and classical

I'm a vegetarian! Have been my entire life :)

Maybe go over the encounters you have had with your friend, and try to see what kind of attractions you feel, whether it be some sort of tertiary attraction or romantic, or something else! Do some research, spend more time with your friend to see how you feel, maybe that'll help you figure this out. And remember, it's completely fine to not be aro! You're still valid and sexuality and orientation are and can be fluid. They aren't forever set in stone. Hope this helps!