Louis On Air

I guy I dislike asked me if I was bi outside of the PE changing rooms. I said no. He then asked me if I was straight. I said no. He then asked if I was gay. I said no as I was walking away. That's what you get for dragging me across the floor in Drama in 2012 

I'm just kind of thinking about how mental condition has affected me and things I do everyday because of it that would seem strange to others. It's something from birth that is only diagnosed once as permanent so like being Aromantic, I don't know what it feels like outside of it. I've often dismissed my problems and doubts because someone else who I know has it worse and I'm doing it now because I know what I need to do to fit in, and just do that.

Also I'm very academically focused because of it so I don't need as much support when I have a clear goal and don't stress out too much because I'm good at seeing the bigger picture. It's not a curable handicap or even baggage I drag around, it's just me.

The worry here is fitting into the adult world. I couldn't do anything retail and really I don't want any job that comes before university because they're not demanding thought and visualisation and solving problems which is my greatest asset. I don't even know why I'm suddenly thinking about this now and why I don't think about it more. And now I don't know how to end this.