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Hi, im on one of my monthly identity crisis. I would actually like some input if thats alright.
So I've been questioning if I like girls. Like if I want to date them. I dont fantasize about dating them or anything. I just think that if i had to choose to date guys or girls i would choose girls. I've always been more comfortable and have strong bonds with girls. And to be honest, they look nicer than guys. Body wise. Im not sure if that counts as sexual attraction??
I will share a dream I once had, maybe it would help? So I had a dream one night where I was extremely sexually attracted to a girl and in that dream we had sexual intercourse. Whoa right? But it didn't feel like a wet dream. When i woke up I was confused, I didn't really feel anything actually. Did I want it to happen again? Not really. Was I aroused? When I woke up I clearly wasn't. So I'm so confused.
Going back to romantically, I imagined myself "dating" a girl and all I could think about was hanging out, holding hands, and having a strong bond which does feel nice. But no kissing though. And no sex aswell. And i keep thinking, isn't that just being friends? What do you guys think?