Louis On Air

I'm just kind of thinking about how mental condition has affected me and things I do everyday because of it that would seem strange to others. It's something from birth that is only diagnosed once as permanent so like being Aromantic, I don't know what it feels like outside of it. I've often dismissed my problems and doubts because someone else who I know has it worse and I'm doing it now because I know what I need to do to fit in, and just do that.

Also I'm very academically focused because of it so I don't need as much support when I have a clear goal and don't stress out too much because I'm good at seeing the bigger picture. It's not a curable handicap or even baggage I drag around, it's just me.

The worry here is fitting into the adult world. I couldn't do anything retail and really I don't want any job that comes before university because they're not demanding thought and visualisation and solving problems which is my greatest asset. I don't even know why I'm suddenly thinking about this now and why I don't think about it more. And now I don't know how to end this.