Oko

I was "in love" but I'm not sure if call it "crush". It was always someone who was interesting about me (not just one person), and I started to love him. He wanted to date with me and I was like: Why not?🤷‍♀️ In the beginning it was nice, but then it ended and it was relief for me. I have never had "butterflies" or what, I just loved him, like if you love your parents/siblings... For me it's the same. But I don't want to be in love/relationship anymore😃

I have never needed to "be in love" or "be in relationship". But sometimes I was like *Why not?*. When somebody asked me about future, I imagined myself alone in my own flat/house with cat/dog. And it came true, I live alone with a cat😀 I don't like romantic movies/stories because it's boring for me. I was in relationship but I didn't need to do "romantic things" and I said "I love you" to him just because he wanted to hear it😄 I love and enjoy being single. That's why I'm asking if I'm aro or not🫠

Hello everybody. I'm new here, I found this page by coincidence. I'm confused by myself. I had relationships in the past. In most cases with somebody who I knew for some time before I started to date with him. He interested about me and I was like "Ok, why not?" but it usually took just some months and after the breakup I felt relief and happiness, no sadness. I considered it a mistake. My last relationship took 4,5 years (and I found out I'm asexual during it) and after the breakup, it was relief too. I wasn't sad and I was immediately okay with it. Now I'm single and I'm the happiest I've ever been. I live just with my cat and I'm totally satisfied. I have never been looking for relationships, I have always been okey with being single. I just didn't resist and somebody found me. Now I'm like: *Relationship? Never more!* I love being single and independent. Romantic movies are boring for me. Just if it's funny and crazy with some romantic😀 People often tell me "You're just disappointed that's why you resist, you have to meet a 'right person', you have to change your mind to not attract a bad people..." etc. But if it was right, I was sad about it, wasn't me? Is it possible I'm aromantic, or it's realy some "defense mechanism"? I don't know. And another thing: When I was a child, my mother divorced with my father and found a new boyfriend (call him P.). I asked her "Who you love more? Me or P.?" (I wanted her to say me, of course😀) and she told me: "I can't tell who I love more, I love you differently than him. It's another love. When you will have a partner, you'll understand it." Ok, I'm 26 and I had a partner and I still don't understand it. If you love somebody, you are interested in him/her, you take care about him/her, you want him/her to be happy, live, healthy... It can be your mother/father/sibling/partner... for me it's the same. What another love??? Is there somebody who understand it? Sorry for my english, I'm not a native speaker.