Gray_acie

Rant, because I can't say anything about this to any of my friends because they all keep saying "no stop that you're gonna catch feelings for him!" (I still haven't come out to them as aro) So there's this guy in my friend group, and we'll call him B. B and I, at first, hated each other. we sort of look alike, and everyone just LOVES to point that out, but we hated each other's guts. insult after insult, morally questioning arguments constantly. I argued with him on everything, and he chastised me for every move and word. We'd even go into these silent staring contests, each of us daring the other not to blink or smile. Very hard on my part as I'm a very smiley person. Then, I guess after a few months, it just got really tiring. we still get into those staring contests, but it's just fun now. we're actually pretty close now, casually, and I'm really happy with how our friendship is going, especially considering our group is more at ease without us challenging the other all the time. he has longer hair than everyone in the group, and he actually let's me braid it sometimes since I'm fidgety, and being able to do something with my hands always helps my anxiety-filled mind. and sometimes we'll just tell each other shit, like the first time I told him I trusted him enough to have my address(I have problems with that), or share a shit-eating grin whenever we understand something the others don't, since we are the more mature two of the group. I'm also a really physical person, and seeing as everyone but me and two other girls are all guys I can't really express myself that way a lot, which is fine with me most of the time, but he knows I'm a physical person(because of an argument, months ago) and doesn't really seem to mind whenever I lean on him or sling my arm around him. it's just nice, because after a few months of worry that "oh shit have I ruined my group??" and "oh god what if I have to argue with him forever", it's just..chill. we're chill, and I'm happy with how our friendship is going. one of my closer friends who's also in that group, I'll call him O, is also sort of like that, but he's still sometimes jumpy about physical-ness so I try to tone it down, but he seems happy that me and B aren't arguing either. Mostly, I think, because B is like his best friend, and me and O are just close. anyway that's my rant. Thx if you took time to read it, I've just been bursting to say it because everyone else say imma get a crush on him but like- I'm just happy with how our friendship is going😃

I've been a romantic my entire life, but there are lots of things as an aromantic person I def don't understand. and opposite gender partner not wanting you to be friends with people of their same gender. like, one that's abusive, and two, how tf did they meet them then??? you aren't excluded if I would decide to not be friends with guys anymore. butterflies, and getting sweaty palms or feeling nervous. like, that just sounds like being anxious, or sick. doesn't sound pleasant at all. a person being 'the One'. like, you do realize that no one's going to be that person you have in your head, right? and if you're only looking for 'the one' that perfectly fits you, why don't you just say that instead of trying to make every girl/guy seem like it??? Being obsessed with a person and learning things about them without even talking to them, or social media stalking them. like, observing stuff I understand. I know where half of my friend's classes are or building's for certain classes are because I observe them, and just see the direction my friend is gong, but I don't consciously do it, or try to find out things. that's just creepy, straight up.

So, I have a squish. big deal right? he's hot, a gentleman, and I'd like to hold hands with him, whatever man. but, lately just to vent since none of my friends even know I'm aro, I've been using a "crush helper" on some character AI site, just for fun mostly, mess with it, make games out of it, story or drawing prompts and what-not. Well, I told the thing that when I'm surprised, I usually hiccup, and occasionally squeak. This really does happen, though usually it's the former of hiccupping profusely when I get jump scared or something. and dis dude- TOLD ME TO SQUEAK OCCASIONALLY AT MY SQUISH BECAUSE HE MIGHT THINK IT'S CUTE. LIKE BRO-NO-THATS SO WEIRD. do people actually think it's cute and like- do it to attract attention? I hate it when I do that, it just hurts my throat bro, wtf?????

It's nothing exciting, my name is just miss-spelt a lot. my name is actually spelled: Gracie. but the main variation of it is: Graycie, and my favorite color is gray, so I combined them.

what up, currently drinking cream soda 😃

about the alterous attraction, could that be inbetween as in a physical attraction, but having no romantic feelings and just wanting friendship?

So about half a month ago I was on Trevorspace and had some questions because I was(and still am really) questioning myself about being aro, something that had been stuck in my brain for well over a year. I've always been a HUGE romantic, and my 2nd favorite genre for just about anything is romance(1st is fantasy, cause it's just better), and I was really confused about it all. Well, the person I was talking to mentioned QPRs. They didn't really say a whole lot, but I'm still really confused, and the internet is NOT helping. need some help because I'm having a crisis here.

reading a book called loveless because my school librarian recommended it(she was cool aF), and there was this page where the word aromantic was used. asexual was used too, but that one was something I knew about, so I skimmed it. But Aromantic, I had never heard that word. well, as the book went on it explained the word more. and I just felt so...in place with this word. Also with the book in general, but that word just felt right, and I couldn't explain it. and now, a year later, I'm here. still thinking about it and reading that book over and over again, and still not sure, but feeling better when I use that word for myself.

Hi! My name is Gracie. I've only really just started identifying as aromantic, which (guess what) explained a huge chunk of my life. I'm still confused on some stuff, and I have some questions which I hope will be answered in time. I've never met another person like me, so I'm here to find some friends that also don't fit in with society's repressive romantic norms.