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That's true. I might need to unplug for a bit. My mom called me my given name, but I'm not revealing my actual name on the internet, so I replaced it with my nickname. no, my mom does not know I'm aro. She thought I wouldn't want to watch it because I'm not much of a horror/vampire fan. And yes, essentially.

i get it. kind of. not completely, but i understand what you're getting at.

egghead, you're one of my best friends. you're not coming in second. you never will. and i value you a lot, okay? yay sevan! realizing sexuality!

i'd say if it makes you comfortable, go for it.

i think until something strikes me, i'm just going to use aroace, at least until i talk to Delta. Delta usually has good advice. keep in mind, i'm not trying to say anything like "i'd rather talk to Delta than you" that's not what i'm saying. i literally tell him everything, he was one of the first best friends i made online and going to him before i make a big decision is just habit.

sexuality is stupid. i think i might just go back to using aroace as an umbrella term. i really don't want to, but nothing else is working. it's starting to affect my mental health.

Percy Jackson and the Battle of the Bacon

Yes, I know! Old writing is always a trip down memory lane. And embarrassment lane. I write a lot of random stuff. A fair bit of fanfiction to sharpen my skills and then some of my own stuff. Currently crafting a LGBTQIA+ novel, so yippee!

I mean, it's definitely possible, but I'm that person who has to have something concrete to go with and I don't think quoi would work, because it's not being able to tell the difference which therefore means it changes and yeah. Tried that for a while, but the problem is, I've experienced attraction on multiple occasions. I'm sorry, I know I'm being incredibly difficult.

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With all due respect, I'm not revealing my age on the internet. See, but the problem is, I like a guy. And I like a girl. But I also can't tell the difference between platonic, alterous, and romantic attraction, so that's complicated. I did identify as aroace for a while and I did feel comfortable, but the problem is, I'm just NOT aro. It's just not me, because I feel romantic attraction, or at least what I THINK is romantic attraction.

Okay, so I've identified as asexual for a while. That went without saying. But my romantic identity has always been a bit of a struggle. It basically went from heteroromantic (ew straightness /j) to demiromantic to grayromantic to abroromantic to oriented aroace to bi-alterous aroace to demibiromantic. And there may have been some a-spec in there somewhere. I honestly forgot. And I know I'm some half of romantic. Romance is just one of those things that sounds good in theory, but if I see people kiss, I want to throw up. But if I read about people kissing or picture myself kissing someone, I get the warm and floofies. And personally, I'm at the age where I could date and half of my friends are in relationships, but I'm just like, "Nah, we're still too young to date." When one of my friends has had four boyfriends in the past 3 years. Like, dude, what??? So basically, I have no clue how I identify and I am the type of person who likes things to be clear and right now they are not, so I'd appreciate some insight from fellow a-specs.

hi! omg you write too?! What do you like to write?

Yes. The white gives it a very calm vibe. And okay, so I was still allowed to use my computer, but I had to be where she could see me. But yesterday, my dad wanted to watch his weird vampire show or whatever and she's like "Fandom (okay, she actually said my given name, but same sentiment), you might not like this. You can go in your room."

hello!

Just you wait, I'm going to come back with armies of the dead. I am the bringer of death after all. You should not have granted me this power.

Fuck it. Fine. OH WAIT HAHAHAHA SCHOOL SETTINGS BLOCK IT I AM INVINCIBLE!!!!!!!!!!

Nope, I can't. I know what's going to happen. But it's a button, and I love pushing buttons. BUT I SHOULDN'T.

I should have known that was coming. It's taken all of willpower to not click on your signature, you know.

Okay, so I was not banned from AVEN. My mom found out I was on AVEN and for four months, I was not allowed to be in my room with my computer by myself. Yesterday she let me do it, so glory hallelujah, I have done it. And I love the cleanness of this site honestly. It just seems so peaceful. Well. You keep making sex jokes, I'll keep making rebuttals and we'll see what happens. hi! Omg I missed you so much!

Well, then can I at least be the bringer of death? You gotta give me something here, dude. I just escaped a FOUR-MONTH-LONG ban.