So I’m on another LGBTQ+ Forum (mainly focused On teens). There is a lot of topics like I need a bf fill out this form. And I’ve been afraid of being made fun of for not doing them ever. So I found one and did it cuz I was afraid of getting made fun of. As soon as I submitted it I went into a panic attack, I tried to calm myself down by saying ‘it’s ok your ugly they won’t pick you’- 5 mins later I got a pm. I felt like I couldn’t say no cuz I was the one who filled out the from. Now I have a lot of past relationship trauma, so when he asked to have internet sex even tho I said I was asexual I panicked and blocked him I’m still a bit panicked even the next day and I don’t know if I should blame myself or something else.