It takes me a long time to understand that I was aromantic because I'm not at all romance repulsed... as long as it doesn't concerne me
Yes I can understand why you're happy with this person, yes I can find a couple being in love cute and so on, yes I'm happy when you're happy, yes sometimes I'm shipping ( but it's more QP relationships than romantic and I keep this to myself), yes I can be 'romantic' (cuddles, kisses, little gifts... but not the 'candles, red wine and roses' kind) if I'm in a relationship because I care for that person (I wouldn't be with her otherwise, duh)
But now, looking back, there were some tell-tale signs :
Like many of you, I picked a crush on someone because that was everyone in elementary and middle school was doing. I couldn't care less about those thing but I was afraid to be rejected at the time.
When a boy says he likes me, I panicked...Not because I've never had someone who said they liked me (but it was indeed the first time ) but because I felt nothing but physical attraction and respect for the boy. And because I didn't want to hurt his feelings, I agreed to date him. Bad idea : he fell in love and I felt cold and annoyed, because he was asking for something that I already said that I couldn't give.
I don't understand relationships since I was a little kid... I don't understand human's interaction in general (even if I can easily play along), but more importantly I JUST DON'T understand relationships ! Sure I know how to manage a successful romantic relationship (by pure logic but whatever), but all the reasons and the results behind it left me more confused and appaled than everything.
Romance in pop songs and movies left me with a sour taste in my mouth. Just ugh. I love Disney, but I cringe everytime I heard those cheesy songs or I see a character fell in love. There is a reason why Inside Out, Big Hero 6 and Zootopia are my favourites of all the Disney cinematographic (There also Hercule and the Hunchback of Notre Dame but it was really for their fantastic villains... and the music)
Humans... Why have you to be so frustrating ?