pieperchoco Posted January 7, 2019 Share Posted January 7, 2019 I have abandonment issues so I think maybe this entire time when I said I wanted a romantic relationship I just wanted someone to talk to and hang atound semi permanently. I didn't have friends for several years so that doesn't help this theory of mine. I realise I've probably had only squishes this entire time instead of crushes when I admired guys and women. The feelings weren't strong unless they were sexual. I didn't fantasize and found it awkward to try doing that. I find the concept of romance fun but that's all I really see it as. My mind has never really imagined what it'd be like to date apart from thinking it would go wrong from previous mental problems. I guess I've been getting too excited about having crushes but maybe they are crushes. Can someone help me out here? EDIT: I also realise that my previous ability to repress feelings for people I thought I was crushing on may have just been a series of squishes In the midst of sexual attraction I could logically tell myself I wasn't in love with the other person Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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