Rackson

Hey, long time no post. I recently got into and out of a relationship with a person I met online. I understand that the relationship was never that serious to begin with (it was online after all). But I honestly didn't care that we split ways. This girl was obsessed over me, she would write stories about me, paint things for me, and do everything for me. I did similar stuff for her as well, but it never felt like an obsession or really anything other than wanting to please someone else. And I still feel like I could be happy in a relationship but not love anyone. Anyways, I'm getting off topic. Long story very short, I split it off. This girl always promised me that she would come down to where I am located, but she never came through on that promise. It wasn't her fault, but it still sucked that I never saw her irl. You feel me? All this to say, I had a relationship but I never felt the same love that was given to me, and that is one more point for aromanticsm. Which makes me sad :( There was no real point to this forum post, just to say "I had a relationship, and it didn't make me feel anything" But, ya know, that could just be cuz it wasn't irl. Idk

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Can you tell me bit more about this please.

I'm pretty sure we had a very interesting thread about specifically Christianity and aromanticism. If I find it I will update this post.

I have adhd, I got diagnosed in 3rd grade. I have combined type ADHD, and it affects every part of my life. My personal opinion is that everyone has bits of adhd in them, just like everyone has a few ocd type behaviors. And I personally think that people blame ADHD a bit too much, ADHD runs so so much further than being distracted or heightened emotions. It even runs further on a neuro-chemical level as well. I don't have any problem with other people having ADHD, after all its more people like me. But my best opinion after 7 years of people finding out I have adhd and saying to me "Ooooh I think I have ADHD, I super cannot pay attention when my history teacher is talking" is as follows: go get tested, there are psychologists who study this stuff near you. If you are unable to go get a test, then ADHD or not nothing is offical. I don't wanna be rude, but im at the point where I don't know what to blame on ADHD and what else is living in my brain. To answer the main point at hand, I personally think that nerodiversity (ugh, I hate that word) and lgbtqia+ correlate. So I wouldn't be surprised to hear a lot of people with ADHD are aromantic, cuz ADHD messes with your brain dude. When you are high on the ADHD spectrum, it really fucks with your thinking and how you act. Idk, maybe im autistic or bipolar, the psychologist is still testing.

I really like this,thank you.

I couldn't tell you man, you are asking a good question to the wrong people.

Everyone in my family blames me for everything.

Am I okay, I don't know. You tell me. Everyone tells me things, and I believe them. You can convince me that I feel anything. I try and quarantine myself from other peoples input or opinion so I can form my own, but people still get through. I can't stop thinking, and then I overthink, and that makes me stressed so I under-think, and then I don't think about my decisions and act impulsively. I joined this website thinking, am I aromantic? But the real question should have been much more broad. Who am I. I seem to only feel what other people tell me too when it comes to sexuality and romance. I can't stop. Something changed in me this last summer. Something deep down. I am not sure what to do on here anymore. Aromantiscm is a very real thing, but that can't stop me from wondering. Have we just not found the right people yet? Or are we doing something wrong? I don't know anymore, I am so susceptible to other peoples opinions, that I don't know what to think about anything. I think so many thoughts, but can't decide on anything. I felt fine before. I wanted a girlfriend, but didn't feel those icky feelings for people at all. I didn't know what to do, I probably would have shut up and not said anything and been a looser who couldn't talk to anyone. But now, I don't know what to think. Every time I make up my mind on anything, I question my decision. I don't know if I am aromantic, asexual, pan-romantic, pansexual, transgender, or straight. Part of me misses the fog that I lived in when I was sure I was straight. There was something nice to not worry or think about any of this stuff, to shove it in the back of your problems so you didn't have to think about it. I had my first panic attack a week or so ago, then my first serious case of dissociation, I never had any of these problems before. So why are they appearing now. Its like the world knew that I was changing, and said "Hey he can handle hell, right?" and now i'm in the thick of it. I know I don't need to be anyone but myself, but when you are everyone else, who are you? Who is the person in the mirror, when they are only what people tell them. The only thing I know is that I want to become a better person, for everyone. That's the only thing I can make up my mind about. Part of me says "just go with the flow" and continue acting like everyone. But its rough, when you can't make up your mind on important decisions. I don't know if I just want to feel special, or if i'm heartless, or I am aromantic, or I am pan. This stuff is hard, and it just keeps on getting harder. I can't stop. I can't be myself, because I am myself. I don't know anything, all I know is that when I make up an important decision, I can't help but question it. It doesn't make sense, and when It does, something seems to reveal itself that changes how I think. I hope this reaches someone, because god knows that I can't decide for myself. Whats happening, is this the questioning part of not being straight, because im pretty sure you aren't supposed to question everything that you once thought you knew. Im 16 and I can't think straight. Literally and figuratively

dude i dont know how to fucking tell you this, this isnt a fresh take. This post was like saying "guys, winter is pretty cold". You want cringe culture? well this post is cringe compared to the shit u trash on if you dont have something important to post, then dont post stupid shit

Tysm, :)

Read what I just posted, that is a little tiny bit what it is like having ADHD.

The things I go back to are either: telling stories, and making jokes. Those are some of the only things that stay with me. As for feeling kinda broken, I understand completely. My mental health is shit, and antidepressents and ADHD meds aren't helping. Sorta vent about ADHD below: This isn't a fresh take but I think the average person doesn't understand all the problems that come with very active ADHD, they just imagine someone not paying attention and being hyper, they don't see the constant battle with impulses, wild mood swings, how unhealthy some hyperfixations can be, overthinking, constant fidgeting everywhere, blurting stuff you wish you could take back, and the endless stressful pit of fiery hell that is procrastination. People just say "omg, like I couuuuld not pay attention in math class today lol, I am so ADHD" and leave it at that. Society just sees what the media tells them about ADHD. In reality, its like driving a car without power steering, you can sorta control your brain and get it into the general direction that you want, but the car is going to go where it wants to go, even at the worst times. As much as I am my own person, ADHD runs my life a lot. It makes me blurt things out when I shouldn't, It keeps me awake at night when I should be sleeping, it makes me forget basic things and names that a normal person should remember, it makes me feel like shit one day and makes me feel awesome the next day, it makes it hard to tell a story without getting side tracked midway through, it makes random questions and thoughts pop into your head. ADHD helps a lot with creative stuff, I wrote a 90 page full film script this year and couldn't have done it without ADHD, I am learning how to draw with ADHD, I learned how to code because of ADHD. Its a blessing and a curse, because it can ruin you or help you so much. This is one of those days where I don't like my "neurodiversity" one bit. Because it is a battle constantly. I think people shouldn't be ashamed for having ADHD, but it is so so far from simply "being distracted". It is so much more, and all depends on the experience of the person with it. The best way I have heard ADHD emotions described is "With ADHD you either feel way too much, or way too little" If you have ADHD and are reading this, good luck

Yeah, I hate that feeling. It feels like you are wasting your time no matter what you do. I had a time like this about 2 months ago where I would just watch youtube and play videogames, and none of those brought me joy. I kinda have the reverse end of this where I can't stop finding new hyper-fixations, and it sucks cuz I can never stick with one thing and get really good at it.