BlueMycena

I'm gonna play Baldur's Gate 3 when it comes out on ps5.

Truthfully, I mostly just wear whatevers comfortable. But there are a lot of aesthetics I like. Too many to count but some of my favorites are: Dark Academia Lighthousecore Ravencore/Goblincore Voidpunk Steampunk Solarpunk

I was originally going to say "A trailer for a D&D setting doesn't have the right to go this hard." But actually? It has EVERY right to go this hard.

Same, I love murder mystery books! Reading your guy's replies made me realize I was being paranoid, thank you.

I asked this question on reddit, but I thought this might be a better place to share my worries. I can not stand straight romance in media, that sh*t makes me want to gag, but I do enjoy same sex romance in literature and media. A lot of the time I feel like a bad Aro for liking Sapphic and Achillean romance in media, like I’m feeding into amatonormativity by liking romance in media at all. Am I crazy for feeling this?

What I mean is: I am disturbed with myself for being turned on by certain things.

I'm sorry, I not sure what type of nsfw content is okay for me to mention, since there are people on here who are sex repulsed. But yes, there are specific ones that I have that I wish I didn't.

I guess it's because I'm horrified by the contents of the k*nks, but am simultaneously aroused by them.

Sorry if this has been discussed before, and sorry for my first post being a vent/rant. I just have to get this off my chest and this is the only community I feel comfortable sharing this with. I hate my libido. It's unnecessary, it's pointless, and it fills me with so much shame. I've tried so many times to completely refrain from touching myself, but my libido doesn't go away regardless if I do or not. Either I try to ignore it and it consumes my thoughts, or I satisfy it and feel awful afterwords. I've read other people discribe their libido as "Like a mosquito bite." and "A chore/bodily function you just got to do like brushing your teeth or relieving your self." and I think that sums it up pretty well. The worst part about it is that there are certain things that do arouse me, and I hate it. I hate these absolutely disgusting thoughts that for whatever reason, turn me on. I just don't understand. It's like my brain is fighting itself. I wish I could just get rid of my libido and k*nks, but I cant and I don't know what else to do.

I'm not sure how to start this so I guess I'll just share a bit about myself. My name is Ilayda. As of writing this I am 19. My hobbies include: Reading, video games, TTRPGs, baking, hiking, and trying to learn how to draw. I'm certain that I am Aromantic, as for my sexuality, I'm not so sure. Thank you for excepting me into the forums.💚