coffeejester

I was in a relationship 5 times actually, but all fell out because I didn't love any of them. I would be really excited jumping into the relationship, maybe because to me it was the same as someone considering me their best friend. But, the problem was that usually, a month into any of the relationships, was when they would start professing their full on romantic love. The problem was that I just couldn't match their love intensity. In the end I only saw them all as really good friends. Of course no one understood how I felt, and each one of them would say I was friendzoning them. I mean, I guess I did but not intentionally, I really wished I could love someone back the way all of my past partners did but I just really can't.

For now I guess I would identify as grey-romantic because I did have crushes in the past, but when I did end up in a relationship with a few of them, I immediately lost interest/ could not develop my feelings further. If I had to describe how it's like to me, it feels like my emotions just half ass love. So the crush part is down pretty well, but the part with the romance and showing loving concern is kinda out of the picture