Are squishes and crushes mutually exclusive? Because from what I've read, when I get scrishes (what I'm calling them for now until I know which they are), I get symptoms of both, but not all the symptoms of both.
When I get one, these are some things I go through:
"OH MY GOSH THEY LIKE THAT TOO!? WE HAVE SO MUCH IN COMMON"
"OUR DIFFERENCES COMPLEMENT EACH OTHER OMG WE'RE SO COMPATIBLE"
I want to be close friends with them
I want physical closeness
I want to spend my life with them
I hypothetically imagine kissing, but it's mostly out of curiosity since I've never done it before. The idea is silly, but I don't wanna knock it till I try it
Same with a lot of romantic situations; I can imagine my scrish and I going on a date, for example, and having a good time, but part of me doesn't like the idea of having to repeatedly find the time to it and it all seems impractical in the long run. Also why should I have to buy my partner presents to prove that I care for them? I'd like my partner to know that I love them regardless of what romantic notions I haven't done in the last couple of months, so if I do get them a present, it's because I legit want them to have it and feel happy, not for my own justification.
I'll edit this post when I have more time
