When I was younger and found a male friend, my family were always like "ooooo is he your boyyffriienndd" so I would just never speak to that person again/drastically distance myself. I didn't have proper male friends until sixth form because of that
Omg I feel the exact same way
I just feel like everyone is going to leave me for their romantic partners and I'm going to be left alone in my future house with my 7 cats, which I mean, yes I want lots of cats but still.