AutistAro

Oh ma goodness. It's been forever. 2020 has been a poop show. Wtfffffff

Around late December guilt about cutting people off really bothered me. Fast forward to I think...late July? I reconnected with one person. Apologized to others but left it at that. I was forgiven by all of them which shook me. I lowkey wanted them to hate me (though one of em was vert upset, but we good now ig).

There's this new-ish person I was interested in befriending, but that fire burned out like two months ago lol. I don't know whats up with me and 'wanting to befriend people'. 

I also learned I'm aegosexual and aegoromantic! I like that stuff when it's happening to others. Particularly fictional characters. Cuz. Fiction. Let your imagination loose. It explains why I can't seem to get away from fluffy fanfics. Good stuff out there.

I feel ok. Had so many mood drops throughout the year but I finally felt stable like...a month ago? Less bread. Less forcing myself to care about people. Less news. It's almost voting time so, Im READY.