juneybug

I just found this post today and it explains everything. I have had actual full meltdowns and cry seshs wondering why I have not be in a romantic relationship yet and why I have not ever really had a crush. Every time I think about it I can never seem to understand how you would know it was a crush. Ive never been in a relationship, or kissed anyone or done anything relationship like but I desperately want to. Finding a label that fits and describes exactly how I feel is amazing and it really helps to know that other people feel the same. Figuring it out though also sucks because I really, really want to have all the same experiences you see people in relationships have. I want someone that is just for me, that I can rely on and that I can cuddle, and kiss and love but I dont think it is ever going to happen. This whole revelation actually happened because I started crying while watching heartstopper because everyone is just living their lives and loving each other and I just so desperately wanted that but had never felt anything like people described romantic feelings. It is all really confusing but finding this really helped.