Thank you for saying this! Through my questioning as I went from cis girl to non-binary I really struggled with my romantic orientation. I have a friend who I thought I had been in love with for 5+ years, so I started by identifying as demiromantic to let myself still care about him, but I felt more cupio some days than demi and the whole thing just confused me until I decided I had never loved him to begin with, but my cupio brain decided I was too lonely and invented me a crush. But now some days I think about him without letting my masculine side slip away and I just feel like a gay man. I’m questioning aro right now (or maybe aroflux, I guess?) and that’s what makes the most sense to me, but I completely understand your lonely and am so glad I’m not alone.
