Guest Posted April 17, 2023 Share Posted April 17, 2023 I feel pretty good maybe not "happy" per se but I feel good right now I'm not perfect and that's ok not saying I'm not struggling by any means but I hope I can start something new and authentic for myself where I succeed and grow My depression comes back in waves but hopefully, it will just be a low tide. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tiger_hoods12 Posted October 17 Share Posted October 17 So, I know this is over a year old and you probably won’t see this, but I feel the same way. I’ve also had to deal with a depressive state that lasted years. I was so apathetic towards everything. I literally couldn’t feel anything. I just felt so numb and empty all the time. It scared me, but at the same time I also didn’t care. There were moments where I would spend all my time in my room. The depression was so bad, I physically couldn’t leave my bed. I just couldn’t. All of this was due to childhood trauma that really damaged my emotional and mental health. I’ve noticed myself transitioning out of state now. But what you said about feeling okay but not exactly happy, I totally feel that. I don’t feel happy, but I’ve definitely noticed myself feeling better. Progress is progress, so I’ll take it. There are times, however, where my depression/apathy comes back, and it’ll last a day or two. Before this all happed, I was actually a fairly confident and very self-assured person. When I became depressed, not only did I feel empty, I felt lost. The old me had gone away and I missed her so much. I just wanted things to go back to normal. It is now kind of, just very slowly. I feel the old me creeps out every now and then. But it’s like you said, I know I’m not perfect and that’s okay. I believe one day I will get the help I need to heal completely and find who I am again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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