KymiNyci Posted May 22, 2019 Share Posted May 22, 2019 I believe I'm aro because of something that recently happened to me. I have this friend (not going to say their name), who wanted to be more with me. I said yes, mainly because I thought I might like him too. Only problem, is that I've never liked anyone before. I've never even had a celebrity crush. I tried, I really did. But after that happened, I ended up having a panic attack. And sense it was after he dropped me off, I ended up having several of them. I finally ended up being able to sleep, but after I woke up and saw he messaged me, I had another panic attack. I tried thinking about what was the problem, and then I realized that I had been ignoring what my body was telling me. I didn't like kissing, I felt it was weird, and I wanted to scrub my mouth out after. I also did not like the hugs or holding hands. I tried thinking about being in a relationship in general, and all I could feel was panic. The only reason why I thought it was normal was because I heard people saying stuff about "nerves" and "butterflies in the stomach". But, I realized that it wasn't that. It was pure panic. I realized that I couldn't continue with it, and I explained it to him. He said he understood, but I'm afraid he thinks this is just nerves over being in a relationship. I don't think it is. I wasn't sad that the relationship ended, I was glad. The only reason why I was sad, was because I knew I was going to hurt him. I don't know where I am on the spectrum yet, but I feel like I'm very firmly in the not liking being romanced. I like watching it, and reading about it. But I don't like it happening to me. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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