Hey... I kinda relate to what you are feeling but I'm also questionning
Before High School I wasn't really interressted in romance, then in my 10th grade I started wanting it but I hadn't any crush, just some guys that I found sexually attractive. I was patient beacause I was like "well, this is the start, don't worry your turn will come one day and you'll find the one"
And the two next years I had 4 crush (one of them was at first sight), and the strongest one lasted for one year and half (It ended up arround july 2023). So I know how it feel to have a crush and I think it's amazing ! (Maybe I'm overreacting ?) And btw I LOVE romance on shows, in books and everything. I never felt romance-repulsed.
And ever since I didn't have any crush, even tho I moved to do my college studies and I met plenty of new people. I found some guys attractive but I can't really imagine myself seriously with them and having feelings for them.
I started questionning a few month ago and after some research, I found this post, and thank you for this. Sooo... Im' wondering if I also did like a "one major change" or if I just don't get a crush this often. Today I don't even know how i'm supposed to feel when I think of someone in a romantic way. So yeah, maybe I turned cupioromantic/demiromantic too.
But that's not all ! Beacause here's come my ✨Insane fear of coping/faking to only feel more "special"✨ even if I know it's stupid and goes against my interests beacause I wanna fall in love again 🥲 And that fear makes me doubt of every single thought on that subject...
It has only been like 6 months since I hadn't another crush, so for now (and also beacause of my fear of faking all of this), I decided to say that I just didn't met anyone that fits me and that I'll wait and see what will happen, even if I still think of this almost everyday
So thank you for sharing your experience, I think it helps me to know that i'm not alone feeling this... Or not, maybe it's not even a similar thing and I'm just a random guy seeking for attention, I don't f*cking know... If someone could help me to know what I am, I would really appreciate, and thank you for reading
(Also sorry for the mistakes and repetitions, English is not my main tongue)
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Hey... I kinda relate to what you are feeling but I'm also questionning Before High School I wasn't really interressted in romance, then in my 10th grade I started wanting it but I hadn't any crush, just some guys that I found sexually attractive. I was patient beacause I was like "well, this is the start, don't worry your turn will come one day and you'll find the one" And the two next years I had 4 crush (one of them was at first sight), and the strongest one lasted for one year and half (It ended up arround july 2023). So I know how it feel to have a crush and I think it's amazing ! (Maybe I'm overreacting ?) And btw I LOVE romance on shows, in books and everything. I never felt romance-repulsed. And ever since I didn't have any crush, even tho I moved to do my college studies and I met plenty of new people. I found some guys attractive but I can't really imagine myself seriously with them and having feelings for them. I started questionning a few month ago and after some research, I found this post, and thank you for this. Sooo... Im' wondering if I also did like a "one major change" or if I just don't get a crush this often. Today I don't even know how i'm supposed to feel when I think of someone in a romantic way. So yeah, maybe I turned cupioromantic/demiromantic too. But that's not all ! Beacause here's come my ✨Insane fear of coping/faking to only feel more "special"✨ even if I know it's stupid and goes against my interests beacause I wanna fall in love again 🥲 And that fear makes me doubt of every single thought on that subject... It has only been like 6 months since I hadn't another crush, so for now (and also beacause of my fear of faking all of this), I decided to say that I just didn't met anyone that fits me and that I'll wait and see what will happen, even if I still think of this almost everyday So thank you for sharing your experience, I think it helps me to know that i'm not alone feeling this... Or not, maybe it's not even a similar thing and I'm just a random guy seeking for attention, I don't f*cking know... If someone could help me to know what I am, I would really appreciate, and thank you for reading (Also sorry for the mistakes and repetitions, English is not my main tongue)