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I’m semi-seeing a guy I started off as friends with. I can tell he’s into me but it’s just like I freeze up and try to deny anything’s even going on whenever he gets physically close. I consider myself grey-aro and I really want to be partnered but it just feels like I’m scared of losing control of my own body any time someone touches me in a romantic/sexual light and I have no idea what to do. And people often ask if I’m just demiromantic but I don’t think that’s it bc I really have no desire for romance at all. It just freaks me out as much as I’d like to be partnered. Anyway I was wondering if anyone’s been through something similar because I just feel so wildly alone