Perseus

Hm, it seems like Kai has not been on here in awhile, meaning it might take a bit before xe realizes I got on here. So in the meantime, hallo I am Kasper, one of Kai's headmates. This would be one of the few sites that us being a system has not been mentioned on, the most logical reason I can think of being the fact that we have not seen any systems on here. I am not sure if this is the correct area to put this in, but it willl have to do for now. Anyway my pronouns are it/its and I am not the only headmate Kai has.

two people from another site have suggested that i might be aroflux

Ok, so I have been identifying as gray-ro for like barely over a year now. But recently I've started questioning my romantic orientation again. So lets start back before I even thought about being on the a-spec. Around March of 2018 a good friend of mine had told me that she had a crush on me and asked if I wanted to be her partner. I had never really even thought about being in a relationship at all but she was nice and so I told her I'd think about it. I ended up convincing myself that I did in fact like her in a romantic way and proceeded to agree to date her. This was fine until about a month or so later I was like 'shit I don't actually like her' and looking back I think what I had felt was just platonic attraction. Anyway I ended up feeling immensely guilty and didn't end up breaking things off with her until August 2020 because I didn't want to hurt her, that plan kind of backfired though. Around like late December of 2019 is when I found the terms graysexual and grayromantic.  I thought it seemed to fit me based on that so I decided to go ahead and id as them. That was all good up till a little bit after I broke up with my ex. I had been talking to this person online since April and I had started to slowly develop romantic feelings for fae. About mid-October the two of us started dating and we are still currently together. December was where my romantic feelings decided to change up how they wanted to work. I have developed like five crushes since then and that's only counting the ones I still currently have a crush on. So uh yeah

Hey Ash, welcome to the site ig. So, what are your pronouns? I would like to know which to refer to you as.

the past

l still in this household this is fine

On 11/4/2020 at 11:06 PM, 2 Spirit Cherokee Princess said:

How are you doing?  Have you found any help yet? ?

eh could be doing better and no I haven't found help yet

18 minutes ago, roboticanary said:

I cannot give much advice unfortunately, however what I will say is this. That behaviour is abusive. Plenty of abusers will act nice sometimes or put up a front to make you doubt yourself.there is no doubt that what you have described is abuse, there is no defense of 'but it rarely happens', abuse is abuse.

I do not know why this is the only site you have access to now but when you can, if you feel safe to do so,  make a point to find out for where you are what forms of child protection are available and how to contact them, also what organisations are around that offer advice and support. I have no idea what these would be as I do not know where you are but if you are safe to do so, find this out and at least then  you will know what your main options are. I cannot know your situation well enough to tell you what to do, however understanding what you can do should be useful.

my mother is a teacher highly trusted by the district so idk if people would believe me

also this is like the only site like this that isn't blocked on my chromebook

15 minutes ago, Jot-Aro Kujo said:

There are a lot of resources online for what you can do in those kinds of situations. I can't say I have much experience with it myself, but I'd recommend looking for resources that are local to your area if possible. You should also try reaching out to trustworthy adults outside your immediate family- Teachers, your friends' parents, maybe distant relatives, etc. Good luck, stay safe.

like the only person i can think of isn't very mentally stable and is already low on money as is so i would probably just be a burden 

So, um this is gonna need a tw for obvious reasons. Now I know, this site probably isn't the best place to get help from but its the only site like this I can access right now.  I have been suspecting this for a while now and I finally decided to to some research into what abusive homes are like. I am currently living with my parents and my 2 sisters, I would say all but my youngest sister could be considered  abusers. I will be giving reasoning as to way I say this starting with my older sister. I definitely the one that gets the most physical, I have been shoved into countless things by her and dragged many places by her as well. She has done way worse before but stuff like that rarely happens. She tends to be a very manipulative st times and as tried to guilt trip me into doing many things. She wasn't always like this though, she isn't that much older than me and we've got a lot of similar interests; in fact, when we were younger we used to be best friends. About 3 or so years ago I decided to come out to her as a demiboy. She was well aware of the fact that I am not very comfortable with this information being shared with everyone yet; basically I'm trying to say she outed me to our kinda homophobic family. She calls me a lot of names like "bitch" and other stuff like that, she will also yell at my little sister for the tiniest things she does no matter what they are. Now onto my mother, she will basically just have me do things for her, like grab her a drink if shes in a bad mood, and yell a lot. She loves to make comments like "i just cant see you as a boy you know" she'll also acting like the most loving person ever if people are over, but a lot of my friends say they can tell its a facade. Now time for the last person my father, he pretty much neglects me and acts as if i don't exist, unless my mother tells I'm to come get me because he will then go find me and yell at me until I go. I will say, he loves to yell at my older sister, he has even smacked her multiple times so i guess I should be grateful I don't have to deal with that. So yeah, that's why I think I'm in an abusive household and I don't know what to do about it. So help please

Also just so you know, these are not the only things they do, these are just the things I deemed to be most important.

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On 9/25/2020 at 9:21 PM, xeen said:

I've only had one relationship, but it was very similar to what you described: I felt cornered, and the other person was way more invested than I was. My best friend had a crush on me, and I thought I liked her back (I wanted to like her back), so I told her I was interested, too. I kept chickening out, though, when we got close to doing anything real. It always made me feel sick or uncomfortable to be romantic with her. I thought I was just scared, so I kept agreeing to do things with her. Basically, I led her on for months before ending it.

Hey I did that too, just instead of a few months it was 2 years cause I was scared that she'd get mad at me.

42% demi

33% aroace

17% aro

8% alloromantic ace

0% not aro

I read a lot of fanfiction about ships of mine and I love romance stories.

Hey, I'm new too. Hope you enjoy things here.

I have 2 sisters, 1 is older and the other is younger. My older sister is a lesbian and I believe that she is the only other lgbt person in my family. My sister is 17 1/2 months older than me and the other one is 3 years younger.