ollie.is.gay

hey, i’m ollie, and i’m pretty new here... i’ve been super confused lately about my sexuality. i’m turning 13 in two weeks and i’ve identifies as lgbtqa+ since i was around,, 11, i think? at first pansexual, then lesbian... but all my friends have had crushes and whatnot, whereas i’ve never felt anything more than physical / aesthetic attraction and strong platonic attraction. i love the idea of a relationship and am 100% attracted to females in some form of way, but i’m starting to question wether i’m demiromantic or possibly aromantic... but am i, or am i just a late bloomer - or, possibly, do i FEEL romantic attraction but not know?? i don’t understand the concept of “love at first sight”. how someone can see someone, talk to them for a little bit and suddenly - boom! - they’re madly in love. it takes me ages just to THINK about a romantic relationship, and even then it’s not an actual crush - just curiosity. please, any aromantic/demiromantic people here, help me out - i’m super confused and i hate feeling like this; so out of control and isolated. (also, if you have any tips on separating romantic feelings from platonic ones, that would be great - i suck at that lol) - ollie ?