Abyss

For a while I oscillated between identifying as gay or bi, or maybe pan or omni, because I found pretty much all the genders to be (sometimes) attractive. What I didn't know what that I was mistaking aesthetic attraction for sexual attraction... *sigh* Nothing actually ever felt 'right', though.

Then I discovered asexuality sometime in senior year of high school, and it was great, because I finally could look at something and go "yes, this is me, I identify with all of this!". Never looked back.

Interesting! Sometimes I feel like I experience something similar to that, and then I will later rethink my thoughts and reactions, and start thinking that it was really a false positive...

I certainly vary in how much I'm willing to be intimate with somebody, but I've never been able to conclusively find anything that might be an actual romantic attitude, so I guess I don't know. It's interesting to think about/keep in mind though. Thanks for sharing!

'Heart On' by Celldweller. [please note explicit lyrics if you decide to click through]