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Throughout my whole life I never had crushes, was always a bit confused as to what having a crush meant, and why I had to have one in the first place.  The thought of kissing someone makes me wanna throw up, and holding someone's hand/cuddling used to make me uncomfortable bec it was always associated with romantic relationships when I was growing up. I would find girls pretty and think it was a romantic feeling, but then I would be like "NOPE nooo ssssir kissing is gross EWW- also being in a committed relationship is dumb rn anyways bec im like 11... doesn't seem very practical lol" 

And I always though that being a romantic relationship was just stupid lmao

I wanna get married if I have a platonic partner later in life, but its not like a set goal for myself. I'm might get married, might not 🤷‍♀️  Also depends on what happening in my life and my metal stability.