Oh this is confusing

[CatNap]

So if me still seeing myself as still a girl is due to societal pressure or upbringing, And I still feel and perceive myself as masculine and agender, then what? I'd just be stuck in an unhappy position of feeling and perceiving myself as masculine/male, and agender. I don't want that. I haven't been happy when questioning what masculine aligned gender I could be. But there's nothing I can really do to change that. My self perception and feelings I mean. 

 

Even if it was societal pressure or my upbringing, it's kind of the thing that makes me feel better about my gender identity. 

 

I hope that made sense.