meoww4re Posted August 12 Share Posted August 12 this is the right place to post an introduction right? i don't use forum websites too often i'm meoww4re (meow-malware, if you will) and i mostly label myself as aegoaroace or an aroace lesbian. but for more labels; i am caedaroace, also fictoromantic and fictosexual, objectum, and lesbian queerplatonic. i'm transneutral but i won't get too much into my gender though as i have about infinite genders :p i'm a minor, i'm otherkin (malwarekin/robotkin and fictionkin :3) and i am neurodivergent - most notable things is that i likely have autism (getting tested in october this year as of writing!! YIPPEE!) and i have adhd, anxiety, borderline traits (labeled as that by my psychiatrist) and ptsd-like symptoms (i am not diagnosed with ptsd but another thing). i enjoy drawing and making art, playing video games, indulging in my interests IN ANY WAY I POSSIBLY CAN!!!!! ... etc etc my current hyperfixation is object shows (mainly battle for dream island and inanimate insanity). and i also really like technology, robots, and vocaloid or vocal synthesizers!! some of my favorite characters are taco (inanimate insanity), mepad (inanimate insanity), pin (battle for dream island), firey (battle for dream island), hatsune miku (vocaloid), kasane teto (utau/synthv), edgar (electric dreams), am (i have no mouth and i must scream), etc etc... i like a lot of characters tw for internalized arophobic beliefs i found out that i was aromantic actually pretty recently... i can't remember when but i came to terms with it this year. i was questioning for YEARS and would say i was aromantic on and off (mainly after a breakup in a romantic relationship) but that never felt right to me, because something in my brain pressured me to seek romance? it's hard to explain but i felt like i couldn't be loved if i was fully aromantic so i forced myself to think that i did experience romantic attraction.. but then i discovered queerplatonic relationships/attraction and that made my questioning even more stressful because what it did was confuse me even further - is what i experience romantic attraction or queerplatonic attraction?? both of these types of attraction seem oddly vague .. how do i differentiate!! but eventually i was in another romantic relationship this year, and i just suddenly realized - wait, these feelings don't fit the usual definition and "signs" of romantic attraction but they aren't exactly platonic either... and after the breakup, i looked more into queerplatonic attraction and i realized that some other peoples experiences with queerplatonic relationships and attraction fit mine pretty well... i began to understand my feelings towards others a LOT better from all the reading i did and it kinda wiped that "if i'm aromantic i can't be loved" belief from my mind. now, i'm currently out as aroace irl and online and i'm actually really happy because i've finally found myself :) i believe this is all i really wanted to put on my intro .. i may not post or comment too much but i hope to be able to talk about my experiences and such here and meet some cool people :3 apologies for the incredibly long intro by the way! i like writing long intros for some reason .. anyways see you all later!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jot-Aro Kujo Posted August 12 Share Posted August 12 Nice to meet you. Got a favorite vocal synth software in particular? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
meoww4re Posted August 12 Author Share Posted August 12 2 hours ago, Jot-Aro Kujo said: Nice to meet you. Got a favorite vocal synth software in particular? i think a lot of them are really cool! i like utau a lot :) i also find ones like synthesizer v to be really cool, how natural they sound 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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