Grey, demi, or smth else

[Milooo_5]

Okay, so I've been confused about my sexuality for years now, and I feel like greyromantic or demiromantic could be the right label, but I wanted some outside input. Tbh, I can't really remember many of my childhood crushes enough to deem them as crushes or not, but there are three crushes that I've had throughout my life that I can vividly remember. The first was when I was 5 and lasted until I was about 7-8. It was on a boy that I was really good friends with and would hang out around all the time, but honestly, being that it was about 12 years ago now, I can't really recall anything else, aside from the fact that I thought about him for years after he moved away and fantasized about meeting him again. The second was on a boy from my middle school when I was 12, and lasted for about 9 months. I remember feeling really excited to get to know him and maybe hoping that it could become romantic in the future. I don't recall ever feeling "butterfly" feelings around him, but I really enjoyed talking to him and being his friend. I would get jealous when he would hang out with his other friends and I fantasized about him, but it never involved kissing or cuddling; they were mainly just fantasy scenarios and one time I fantasized about him confessing to me. I did eventually confess to him and he turned me down, and although I was a little sad, I mostly just felt free. Rumors started circulating that I "asked him out", which I denied bc all I did was tell him how I felt (I didn't even consider that telling someone you liked them equated to asking them out.) After COVID, we stopped talking and my feelings faded away. The final crush was pretty recent and I still feel some lingering feelings for her. I knew this girl for about 5-6 months before I even considered liking her in a romantic way, and it was like a switch went off in my brain, like how had I never realized how pretty she was and how nice she was to talk to. My crush on her was really intense for about 1-2 months, and then it slowly started fizzling out after finding out she had a bf. I still like her as a person and I now realize that we probably wouldn't work out romantically for multiple reasons, but at the same time, I still feel this attraction to her (mainly to her appearance bc she's really pretty and has a nice smile.)

So, what do y'all think? 

[alto]

Straight aroace?  IDK.  However, if you also likes guys in a platonic way...pan aroace?