hi, im rin and i want to have a romantic relationship but i think i cant love people in a romantic way. i adored romantic films and books my whole life and i always dreamed about having a life like that but now i dont think it can happen in the future. i hate this so muuch. ive never liked people in a romantic way. sure i think some of them are attractive and i would like to kiss them but when i got into a relationship about half a year ago it didnt feel right. and my partner was my best friend and i liked them very much but i think they loved me and i didnt love them back and this made me feel really guilty about the situation. and it happened twice now i just ended another relationship because i was so stupid and i thought it wont happen again and i can date people. deep down i knew that its a bad idea and i already questioned if i could feel any romantic attraction, but im so eager for love all the time and i really wanted to try it again. i wasnt right and it was so awful to tell somebody who is in love with me that i cant see them more than as a friend. i want to but i dont know how.
how can i have a romantic relationship with somebody if i cant have any romantic interest in them? it feels like lying and i hate it and i want to be in love so much.
if anybody has any some advice please let me know!
(also english isnt my first language so i apologize for my mistakes)
