When I was 6, I remember my mom started getting loads of boyfriends(she had before, I just thought they were normal friends). I was always repulsed by them kissing a lot. Maybe that was just cause they were adults though.
When I was 8, my mom got this boyfriend(who she later married). When he started living with us, on Friday nights we would have movie nights. My mom would sometimes pick romantic movies(typically rom-coms), and I hated them. And it isn't that she was bad at picking movies, she was great at it. But, it was the romantic movies that I hated.
When I was 12, my mom started allowing me to watch horror movies. I was sooooooooo excited. When I was younger she would always pause the show or tell me to get out when watching horror films. But when I started watching them, I saw how forced the sex and romantic scenes were in horror movies. I thought it was disgusting.
From the ages 10-13 I made myself have crushes. First on this one friend who lots of girls liked, so I made myself like him(I creeped him out.....). When I was older, I thought that since I forced myself to like him I was a lesbian. So I made myself like my best friend. I didn't like her. I also told her that I liked her. I should have felt sad she rejected me, but I didn't, I was kind of relieved.