ProbablyHuman

The title's a bit dramatic but there have been times where I've honestly felt that way. I'm lonely, friendless, and have been for a long time. Roughly a year at this point. When I was in primary school, I thought I had friends. I was fucking wrong, you've heard the story before. Fake friends, talked about me behind my back, etc, you know how it goes. This went on for a few years before I figured it out. Never was that bright, not back then anyway. I went to the local primary school in the village I live in. The school itself wasn't that small, but my group/class/grade/whatever was. 8 boys, including me,and 2 girls for I think 3 years before another girl joined the class. I was actually friends with 2 boys for a while, but that kind of faded, it's not relevent anyway. The rest of the boys, however, were the fake friends. It took me a while to realise. I think the point when I really understood the gravity of the situation, when I felt truly betrayed for the first time, was the worst day of my life (so far). I, being the frankly retarded kid I was back then, told a joke that was a bit too edgy for everyone, and they wouldn't let it go. As soon as I had told the aforementioned joke, before anyone even reacted, I knew it was too far. And they kind of tore into me for it, the entire damn class. And though I insisted it was a joke I hadn't thought through, and I hadn't meant it, they refused to listen. Like talking to a brick wall. Except the brick wall is beating you with a crowbar telling you that you're a terrible person. I felt horrible for the rest of the school year. Thankfully this was in 6th class, which is the final one before secondary school in the Irish system, so I thought this whole shitshow would blow over in secondary school and I'd get a fresh start. So I thought. """Luckily""" for me, I was going to the same school as the boys in my class were. And """luckily""" for me, they were friends with other people in the school, who ended up being in my class/group/whatever. And they had been talking about me to these people. And these people talked about me to other people, and, well, it just kept spreading. So now I'm in 1st year of secondary school, and I don't have the honor, the gift, of being a nobody. Instead, it seems like all of 1st year knows who I am (or thinks they do). Random people call my name out in the hallways, my full name, for no reason. People mess with me, such as when I was eating my lunch and some shiteater snuck up behind me, talked loudly into my ear and ran off. I don't know what people know about me, what they think they know. It's horrible. It's been happening since the beginning of the school year which is near the beginning of 2023. I don't even have any friends to support me. Sure, I've got family, but it's really not the same at all. I'm so sick of it all. I feel like, sometimes, god doesn't like me. And you know what? I don't like him either, if he even exists.

"Yet here we are abiding by the laws of the Geneva Convention WHILE EVERYONE ELSE GETS TO HAVE FUN" -WaffleTime

neurotoxin

Ello, welcome to the site! Always nice to see a newcomer around here.

you don't have an enhanced ability to inhale, but if you manage it you will still get their powers i can fully control time

Thanks for all the help, everyone, I really appreciate it. I've read into it a bit and taken a few tests and I'm pretty sure I'm agender, but not entirely sure. How can I kind of confirm with myself that I am? I just feel kind of confused and I'm scared to commit myself to it only to want to to back on it at some point. I'm still really unsure..

Fair warning: I'm not entirely sure how to word all this and will probably explain it poorly. So, sorry about that. I was born male and have identified as such for all my life. But recently I've started questioning myself. I've thought a lot about being female, and worried a lot about it, too. I thought about what I would name myself, and I've settled on what I'd name myself if I do transition at any point. I've worried a lot about transitioning, too, for example wondering about how I would transfer to a different school (I go to an all-male school currently) or how expensive a surgery could be (I never checked) or how much of my clothes I'd need to replace.. etc. The list goes on. I don't know how I feel about the idea of being female, and I don't know how I feel about the idea of being male, either. I don't know if I'd be comfortable as a woman, but I don't know if I'm truely comfortable being a man, either. I feel like I want to dress and maybe physically appear more feminine, like wearing a skirt or dress or maybe having more feminine body features, but I wouldn't be comfortable being referred to as a woman. I think that I'm probably somewhere in-between or neutral, like being genderfluid or agender, but I just don't know. Please help. If you need more information, ask me.

"It is with a heavy heart I must reject her from the Keyboard Smasher Lesbians club"

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This is a thread for posting random little bits of information about yourself. Anything goes, but do try to keep it lighthearted. Until the age of 10, I believed Britain and the UK were two different places.

False. TPBM has played Half-Life

"Look Gordon, ropes! We can use these to- HELP ME GORDON"

got it from the website Etsy edit: just saw you meant my old ring, not the new one. i found the old one at a charity shop

So anyone remember that post I made about getting a white ring to show pride? That ring broke after I dropped it... but, I bought myself a new much nicer (and much more expensive) ring online to replace it. This one's ceramic, and it also fits perfectly! This was all a few weeks back by the way, so I've already got the new ring. I really like it! Oh, and I also just ordered a pride flag for my room like 5 minutes ago, so I'm looking foward to that arriving.

so how long is Half Life supposed to be? seriously at this point i've incorrectly thought i won twice now. i'm on the apprehesion chapter in the weird factory thing

could you send a link?

I'm just looking for a decent playlist on Spotify or Soundcloud without any romance songs in it. I'd prefer one with a few aro-themed songs in it too, but really anything at all that's not romantic is good. Anyone know any playlists like this?

a d&d event could be fun, but how would we play it? seeing as its normally a tabletop game played in real time and this is a website full of people from different timezones, i don't know we could get it to work. still, it seems like an interesting idea!

Bacon Fortress 2

i've always wanted to play D&D but sadly never got the chance to play or even just learn it. what's the campaign about?

i'm doing good myself, if a bit bored. haven't really done much of anything over the past few days, though i did buy getting over it with bennett foddy, which has been, in a word, painful. so how are you getting on? or anyone else that wants to reply, really