Raboon

So, I've been trying to figure out what my gender is, but to do that, I need to have a better understanding of what it actually is. It makes no sense to me because I honestly can't see what the differences between femininity, masculinity, and everything else are. I don't even know what my preferred pronouns are... they're all really just different words used for the same functions. I don't mean this offensively, as I understand that pronoun use is important to many people; I don't mean this disrespectfully to anyone who knows their pronouns and/or gender... I just have a bit of trouble seeing the difference in myself - everything I've tried always seems a little bit off, y'know?